Today I ended things with a man who obviously didn't care about me. He just wasn't that into me. What hurts and angers me even more was that when I decided to call things off on the phone today, all he can say was if that's what I really wanted to do,I should do it. As if he didn't care. He told me goodbye and that was that. I just have a mix of emotions at the moment,I'm angry,I'm tired,alone and just sick to my stomach. I can't stop crying.
I always seem to run into men that either leaves me,lose interest in me,hurt me in some shape or form or cheat on me. So I have to ask myself, maybe the problem lies within me. I think after today, I just give up. If I have to be a lonely old woman by myself so be it. I highly doubt I'll find a man that will love me and respect me that way I deserve.I never seem to find a man. I've been hurt and lead on so much, I can't even tell the good or the bad anymore. I can't tell if a man is sincere in his feelings. I'm so used to being lead on and fed lies and then being hurt.
My self worth and self esteem constantly takes a nose dive with every failed relationship. It's as if I'm not good enough for anybody. I feel like I'm not pretty enough,not interesting enough. I don't understand, This guy I liked made me feel good in the beginning and then he changed,got distant and flaked out on me. I don't get why I can't see the signs earlier.. I always fall for the crap they give me.. I just want to be loved.. Just once.. that's all. Lonely days here we go again
So she breaks up with a nikka on the phone,the nikka was on some "
iight do what you want" shyt and she is now going through an emotional tailspin because the nikka didn't have a mental breakdown.This shyt can't be ordinary.
