This sounds
simpy.
How bout trusting her overall?
You prali one of those dudes that'll stay in a toxic situation
"for the sake of the kids" (when the kids already realize their parents are miserable together and ruin em more)...
Its
2019 and on top of having online dating...older women are easier to pull than ever. There's single and lonely females
(just like you) everywhere. You may not be able to pull
"cream of the crop" younger broads...but there's always gonna be a large cache of
serviceable older women...

There's even younger females that are only attracted to older men period
(fetish/preference).
You didn't do enough HW if this is happening to you...and deserve everything coming to you. Be a better judge of character before you wife something up...