Man Depression is Such a Vicious Cycle

[ThaRealness]

You're stuck in this hole... and just about every way out requires positive energy.

You check for decent jobs

"We're looking for someone who has a positive attitude and can work in a high energy environment!!"

"Oh fukk "

I thought ya'll needed someone with a cynical attitude who can work in a low energy environment

You try to get some p*ssy

"Hey"

Her - "Whats up"


Im dead broke. Please dont ask me to take you out.

I think I may be too depressed to fukk

"Do you like music?"

*No response*

 

[Elfuego]

snort coke and pop amphetamines
thatll lift yo pwussy ass up

 

[Tr0yTV]

Feed depression with coke withdrawals, brehs

 

[Pazzy]

Yeah depression is no joke. shyt will literally snatch your life away from you without killing you. It did to me for years and it's tough as hell to fight. Never realized how much it seeped into my life since I was a kid and how much it robbed me of my life. Jr. high, high school, college years and etc. As a kid, I was overambitious and hyper which over time would change with age and life. My issue was combined with other problems so it was like one big hit. It was functional but at the same time I wasnt living my full potential out. Lost interest in the very same things that made me happy and had no interest to pursue or get involved with new interests. Pretty soon that shyt becomes ingrained and a way of life. That's why they push that cbt along with the pills to correct behavior that basically are altered from coping with depression or anxiety or whatever. Never tried it but been recommended too.

One thing i will never do again to fix that shyt is take ssri's. Never again. I swear that shyt changed me a bit. My brain hasnt felt the same. Stopped using it 7 years ago. I was better off not messing with that shyt at all. I'm trying to be sane and feel alive again.

 

[ThaRealness]

Feed depression with coke withdrawals, brehs

Did I ever say my good decisions got me here?

 

[Ciggavelli]

This is gonna sound strange, but I used my depression and negativity for my benefit. I am a senior researcher at one of the biggest companies in the world. Being negative is actually very useful when you are a researcher. I need to be aware of all problems, reasons why something won't work, potential pitfalls, etc. Me being negative is an ideal quality for my position

So, if you can, try to use your flaws in positive ways.

 

[ThaRealness]

This is gonna sound strange, but I used my depression and negativity for my benefit. I am a senior researcher at one of the biggest companies in the world. Being negative is actually very useful when you are a researcher. I need to be aware of all problems, reasons why something won't work, potential pitfalls, etc. Me being negative is an ideal quality for my position

So, if you can, try to use your flaws in positive ways.

Thats a different perspective.

Where I'm at.... depression serves me no benefit. It sucks out my confidence, and I need that fukking shyt

 

[Loken]

Lost my mother an brother in the same year back in 94 just lost my sister to stage 4 cancer in October last year.

So I understand depression well.... spent most of my life dealing with it in some way shape or form

It’s never easy But don’t keep it locked up find ways to get it out hit the gym music what ever

use that energy for something better

 

[Straw Hat Luffy]

Pretty sure I have been depressed a lot in my life. It's like how Ghostface said in the Wu-Tang documentary: sometimes you be depressed and you don't even know it.
When I look back it all sounds like depression to me. I would feel hopeless a lot. I always had this idea of "starting fresh tomorrow" and being in the same slump the next day. Never going outside. No self-worth with my principals and I didn't care how others treated me. My mother would try to hang out with me and I would rather go to sleep real early. It kind of makes me sad thinking about it.

I been through a lot of physical pain in my life that I won't tell what it is. But recently I have been blessed to live a life without pain and it's drastically changed my mindset for the positive.

I can't say I have had serious cases of depression tho. I know some dudes who have gone to the deep end.

shyt is wild

 

[AuntAnniesPretzels]

This is gonna sound strange, but I used my depression and negativity for my benefit. I am a senior researcher at one of the biggest companies in the world. Being negative is actually very useful when you are a researcher. I need to be aware of all problems, reasons why something won't work, potential pitfalls, etc. Me being negative is an ideal quality for my position

So, if you can, try to use your flaws in positive ways.

How much do you make? And how does one go about being a researcher?

 

[Ciggavelli]

How much do you make? And how does one go about being a researcher?

6 figures. I have a PhD in social sciences. There are many different types of researchers. If you are going into social sciences, user experience, etc, an MA in Psych, Comm, Sociology, or Anthropology will suit you well. You gotta have a master's though. On my team, me and somebody else have PhDs, but the rest have MAs in social sciences. You definitely do not need a PhD though. My boss only has an MA. I thought I wanted to be a professor, so that's why I got my PhD. Upon completing my degree, I realized I hated teaching.

 

[ThaRealness]

Pretty sure I have been depressed a lot in my life. It's like how Ghostface said in the Wu-Tang documentary: sometimes you be depressed and you don't even know it.
When I look back it all sounds like depression to me. I would feel hopeless a lot. I always had this idea of "starting fresh tomorrow" and being in the same slump the next day. Never going outside. No self-worth with my principals and I didn't care how others treated me. My mother would try to hang out with me and I would rather go to sleep real early. It kind of makes me sad thinking about it.

I been through a lot of physical pain in my life that I won't tell what it is. But recently I have been blessed to live a life without pain and it's drastically changed my mindset for the positive.

I can't say I have had serious cases of depression tho. I know some dudes who have gone to the deep end.

shyt is wild

Bro exactly.

That Ghostface shyt rang a bell for me too. My natural mood has always been depression. And I would get really obssessed with certain shyt... keep my mind super focused on specific things. I always fluctuated my self worth between extreme arrogance and self hatred. And as I got older, the self hatred gradually sank in.

I hated having an average life. I suppose Ive learned to accept that. But ever since 2020 rang in, my life has just dipped below average in so many ways. And I dont value "average" enough to fight for it

 

[semicko82]

shouldn't have came in this thread

 

[98Ntu]

Depression is horrible OP. We’re here if you need to talk.

like @Ciggavelli said try to make a strength out of it tho. I’m chronically depressed, anxious and without meds I experience other issues. It’s tough but I’ve embraced it and it’s allowed me to become stoic, self-reliant, honest and introspective.

Depression is a tragedy but if you’re living with the pain of it and are struggling to shake it, maybe you’ve got to either embrace it or get constant therapeutic help (if you can afford that).

Im not a medical guy btw. This is just my story. Hope it helps.

 

[Straw Hat Luffy]

Bro exactly.

That Ghostface shyt rang a bell for me too. My natural mood has always been depression. And I would get really obssessed with certain shyt... keep my mind super focused on specific things. I always fluctuated my self worth between extreme arrogance and self hatred. And as I got older, the self hatred gradually sank in.

I hated having an average life. I suppose Ive learned to accept that. But ever since 2020 rang in, my life has just dipped below average in so many ways. And I dont value "average" enough to fight for it

You can still change all that breh, starting with your mindset.

Like I said I have dealt with physical pain due to something personal I was born with. I haven't been able to live my life like a normal person. But recently with the doctor's help I have been able to walk around pain-free. That shyt makes me tear up in a good way. I'm happy right now.

And I'm telling you this because you most likely have good health and I want to let you know that's a blessing. Trust me.

I feel like depression has increased because of social media/internet. A lot of facades happen now where people make themselves seem bigger than they are. We like to compare ourselves with 10-second clips on Instagram of someone stunting and we end up thinking we're average.

And if your life is average you can change that. You don't need to be rich and famous to do that. Just start by being a dope dude.


I know I'm putting words in your mouth but kick that depression shyt my brother. One day when you're super old you will regret spending your time in the slumps.