How differently you think he'd been if moms didn't die
Its not just dying. It aint even the surgery. Its like i made it, im successful. We came up struggle and dem feelings never really go away, no matter how successful the occupation. And i can afford to get moms a crib, a surgery. A pretty routine one in the grand scheme of things..and she gone. The one person he could shout his soul too and shed never tell. Only so much you can nail on your spouse head realistically. That voice he heard his whole life correcting him even if he aint wanna listen..gone.
So he does shyt bigger and bigger hoping to hear that boy sit your azz down sumwhere. Self torture shyt. Only so much of that hole your wife, hell even kids can fix.
Like some people in moment of agony blame god for losing loved ones, asking why god. He blames himself, that manifested in yeezus.
Ion fuk with him after the slavery was a choice shyt, maga shyt was whatever, i didnt lean to either side. But that was the line. Im from the south born and raised, my ppls come from the trenches of being in bondage, in the belly of the beast. So fukk em 4L for that.
Still you gotta understand something to pass judgement and thats mine