I know about the perks of experiencing heartbreak. I think it's a great test of the human spirit- but the lesson is lost when the person repeats the mistakes and seeks to pretend it never happened. In the midst of a heartbreak, I once told myself to remember how I felt at that exact moment and to remember it months in the future when he would undoubtedly come back. It's not resentment, it's growth.
The salary of a college girl is hard d*ck and bubble gum. You were in similar company. Glad to hear you figured it out.
Hmm. So you had clearance for no-strings-attached sex back then, but now the price is higher. And she has explicitly mentioned sex. TBQH I think she owes you sex. I say that in a slight joking manner. The respectful thing for her to have done was say the truth. She regrets her decision. But, instead of doing that, she's trying to rekindle a flame. And she's choosing the route of cowardice. There would be more honor in owning what she's orchestrating.
I think it's amazing that you're moving soon. You need a fresh start because you've been Good Will Hunting. Happiness is a fleeting thing- and we can get it from other people-yes. But, the caveat with that is they have the power to remove the happiness when they leave. Money is always rotating. The biggest misconception is that it is scarce. So, you need something of permanency- that doesn't resolve around material things and that is outside of another person.
Meeting up with your ex was beneath you. Not just superficially, but internally. I think the reason you did is because there might need to be a little more healing. You told the 'happily ever after' ex no, but this one gets entertained. We do a lot of damage to one another. Honesty with yourself is the best thing you can give yourself because it's like engine oil checks. Am I good? Do I want to do this? Does this make me feel better? Why am I entertaining this?
Lol, it's okay. I'm a girl so vulnerability is kind of my language. You can PM me instead if you want to.