Update - Funeral is next week, and nothing feels real right now. Every time I wake up I just feel so lost & confused, and sleep is the only time I feel a sense of peace. Ever since she passed it has felt like one long day that just never ends, and I keep randomly crying out of nowhere wishing I can hug and talk to her again.
This week is extra hard because she was about to do shopping for Thanksgiving, and now every time I see a commercial for Thanksgiving or Christmas I just get so upset. I hope I am able to recover from this feeling of everything in life feeling pointless, I wish this pain on no one man. Please hug y'all mothers tight if y'all can and tell her you love her.