Losing grandparents is weird, sad, and crazy.... You got kids? How old was she? I ask because I lost my granddad is 2010 and he was a solid dude especially the last 10 years of his life... I'm an only child but my cousins are basically my brothers and they had kids after he passed... Seems like they'll never know unless you teach them the lessons they thought us.... Sorry for rambling
Again, I'm truly sorry for your loss fam