My mom passed away on Monday after having a heart attack and I’m having a hard time dealing with it. One moment I’m talking to her, then I leave room so she could try to get some sleep since she was tired. A few minutes later I hear some weird gasping noise.
Once I realized she was out I called 911 and started attempting CPR but it didn’t work. Once EMS came they tried everything but couldn’t revive her. My dad was out on his way to a doctor’s appointment so I was home alone for those few helpless minutes.
Everyone is telling me that it’s not my fault but I just can’t help but feel like I failed her. Maybe I should’ve stayed in the room or called 911 first instead of checking on her.
She had a rare form of arthritis and her body was always in pain, it was so bad that she was basically home bound for the last decade. In that period, I pretty much became her unofficial caretaker and in the process she became my best friend.
In addition to that, I lost my grandmother right before the pandemic and my grandfather almost exactly a year ago, both on my father’s side.
I’m down bad guys, I couldn’t even write this post without starting to bawl so sorry for the grammar mistakes .
. You did pretty much all you could do in the time you had, I don’t even think aspirin could’ve helped. And I think it’s great that you were a caregiver to your mother, stats say most male children do not do that. I think you should probably try some therapy to help you process the passing of multiple loved ones. It is ok to cry.
