My moms cried for me today and I gave a homeless man my last dollar--mental illness is no joke, breh

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Damn, this was tough. Out of nowhere, she came to hug me then started crying. She wants to see me do better because I've been going through it. That broke my heart.

I told her I didn't want to be a burden on her and the family. She shook her and said "It's not like that." I told her I don't want her to be disappointed about me in old age, no matter what happens. I might just pack up and go to a homeless shelter because sometimes I feel like I can't fix myself and fear it might never happen. Either way, I don't want to be here while I'm working on myself. Maybe that's too extreme, but I was seriously considering it.

As I went to get my prescription meds, I started crying my ass off as I opened the door. I didn't want her to see me because I never cry, but goddamn it was too much.

As I was coming back home, I saw one of those dudes who hold the door open for folks and ask for some change. I always ignore them, but tonight I cried and told him "I know what it's like to be fukked up, man, I'm fukked up too right now" and put the dollar in his hand then leaned in to give him a hug and pat him on the back. He had a black eye and was about to cry too when he thanked me, then said "They hit me, big bro. They hit me for no reason, big bro."

I walked back home feeling a bit relieved, but that was intense. Life can be so sad sometimes. I want to give back, maybe become a peer counselor or even further.





this got me emotional:mjcry:
 

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u should, sometime u need that fire under on ya ass to bring the best outta urself


do some soul searching
 

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I have been diagnosed Bipolar and OCD. Been in the ward multiple times. I have been prescribed Risperidone currently. Before I was on Depakote.
yoooooooo Risperidone is horrible





  • Risperdal can lead to breast growth in men and boys, known as gynecomastia
  • This atypical antipsychotic blocks dopamine and raises the level of prolactin produced by the pituitary gland
  • Excessive levels of prolactin in males can result in gynecomastia
  • According to medical studies, elevated prolactin levels may occur in 90% of Risperdal users
 

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I have been diagnosed Bipolar and OCD. Been in the ward multiple times. I have been prescribed Risperidone currently. Before I was on Depakote.
Bruh get off depakote n all this shyt. Talk to your neurologist to see which drug doesnt make u depressed...u will harm yourself if you dont make a lifestyle change

I was on depakote for seizures at 19, loss my hair and get depressed n gained 80 lbs by 24. U gotta exercise, meditate and be around positive people. Much love to you on your journey to mental freedom.

Peace
 

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yoooooooo Risperidone is horrible





  • Risperdal can lead to breast growth in men and boys, known as gynecomastia
  • This atypical antipsychotic blocks dopamine and raises the level of prolactin produced by the pituitary gland
  • Excessive levels of prolactin in males can result in gynecomastia
  • According to medical studies, elevated prolactin levels may occur in 90% of Risperdal users
I see this commercial every day breh :wow:

Will never understand how more than half of every drug commercial is just explaining the side effects

Also the blocking of dopamine fukks with hormones
 

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yoooooooo Risperidone is horrible





  • Risperdal can lead to breast growth in men and boys, known as gynecomastia
  • This atypical antipsychotic blocks dopamine and raises the level of prolactin produced by the pituitary gland
  • Excessive levels of prolactin in males can result in gynecomastia
  • According to medical studies, elevated prolactin levels may occur in 90% of Risperdal users
Soooo in your opinion POSSIBLY having breast growth is better than being sane and functioning in society? :what:

OP I hope that you find some med/therapy combination that works for you. Its easier for people to have sympathy for those suffering from physical illness but mental illness can be just as bad if not worse. People look at you and on the outside you seem healthy but illness is illness. Treat it just as a diabetic would treat using insulin. Side effects suck but they are much more manageable than the havoc that ensues episodes. Try the meds until you find a right fit. TALK to your therapist and your family. Communicate openly and frequently. Close bonds are the BEST thing you can have. Your mom sounds like she really cares about you. I sincerely wish you the BEST.:salute:
 

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Soooo in your opinion POSSIBLY having breast growth is better than being sane and functioning in society? :what:

OP I hope that you find some med/therapy combination that works for you. Its easier for people to have sympathy for those suffering from physical illness but mental illness can be just as bad if not worse. People look at you and on the outside you seem healthy but illness is illness. Treat it just as a diabetic would treat using insulin. Side effects suck but they are much more manageable than the havoc that ensues episodes. Try the meds until you find a right fit. TALK to your therapist and your family. Communicate openly and frequently. Close bonds are the BEST thing you can have. Your mom sounds like she really cares about you. I sincerely wish you the BEST.:salute:
sooo:stopitslime: u advise taking a medication that causes serious side effects
when there are alternatives that are more safe:wow:
 
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