Damn, I fukked up. Forgive me man.
You mean the OP right? Because that's a completely different nikka than me.

Damn, I fukked up. Forgive me man.
You mean the OP right? Because that's a completely different nikka than me.

Damn, I fukked up. Forgive me man.![]()
man I thought you were calling me fat at first
Damn, this was tough. Out of nowhere, she came to hug me then started crying. She wants to see me do better because I've been going through it. That broke my heart.
I told her I didn't want to be a burden on her and the family. She shook her and said "It's not like that." I told her I don't want her to be disappointed about me in old age, no matter what happens. I might just pack up and go to a homeless shelter because sometimes I feel like I can't fix myself and fear it might never happen. Either way, I don't want to be here while I'm working on myself. Maybe that's too extreme, but I was seriously considering it.
As I went to get my prescription meds, I started crying my ass off as I opened the door. I didn't want her to see me because I never cry, but goddamn it was too much.
As I was coming back home, I saw one of those dudes who hold the door open for folks and ask for some change. I always ignore them, but tonight I cried and told him "I know what it's like to be fukked up, man, I'm fukked up too right now" and put the dollar in his hand then leaned in to give him a hug and pat him on the back. He had a black eye and was about to cry too when he thanked me, then said "They hit me, big bro. They hit me for no reason, big bro."
I walked back home feeling a bit relieved, but that was intense. Life can be so sad sometimes. I want to give back, maybe become a peer counselor or even further.

yoooooooo Risperidone is horribleI have been diagnosed Bipolar and OCD. Been in the ward multiple times. I have been prescribed Risperidone currently. Before I was on Depakote.
Bruh get off depakote n all this shyt. Talk to your neurologist to see which drug doesnt make u depressed...u will harm yourself if you dont make a lifestyle changeI have been diagnosed Bipolar and OCD. Been in the ward multiple times. I have been prescribed Risperidone currently. Before I was on Depakote.
I see this commercial every day brehyoooooooo Risperidone is horrible
- Risperdal can lead to breast growth in men and boys, known as gynecomastia
- This atypical antipsychotic blocks dopamine and raises the level of prolactin produced by the pituitary gland
- Excessive levels of prolactin in males can result in gynecomastia
- According to medical studies, elevated prolactin levels may occur in 90% of Risperdal users

Soooo in your opinion POSSIBLY having breast growth is better than being sane and functioning in society?yoooooooo Risperidone is horrible
- Risperdal can lead to breast growth in men and boys, known as gynecomastia
- This atypical antipsychotic blocks dopamine and raises the level of prolactin produced by the pituitary gland
- Excessive levels of prolactin in males can result in gynecomastia
- According to medical studies, elevated prolactin levels may occur in 90% of Risperdal users


soooSoooo in your opinion POSSIBLY having breast growth is better than being sane and functioning in society?
OP I hope that you find some med/therapy combination that works for you. Its easier for people to have sympathy for those suffering from physical illness but mental illness can be just as bad if not worse. People look at you and on the outside you seem healthy but illness is illness. Treat it just as a diabetic would treat using insulin. Side effects suck but they are much more manageable than the havoc that ensues episodes. Try the meds until you find a right fit. TALK to your therapist and your family. Communicate openly and frequently. Close bonds are the BEST thing you can have. Your mom sounds like she really cares about you. I sincerely wish you the BEST.![]()
u advise taking a medication that causes serious side effects 
I advised him to talk to his physician and not some quack on the internet thats more interested in his man boobs than him maintaining sanity.sooou advise taking a medication that causes serious side effects
when there are alternatives that are more safe![]()

