Marco Zen
Black Privilege
Day 39 I won't lie. The first month was easy, I didn't really feel the temptation ya'll talk about that bad. Now I'm getting to the point where my brain is trying to rationalized beating off.
Time to do deadlifts and back, hopefully that knocks it out.
^^ I can kinda relate to this. my brain did the same shyt last night except it was in a dream. Like at some point during the dream I suddenly realized I was either about to fap or just finished a fap. Then in the dream I remembered my new lifestyle and was like "WOAH! WTF am I doing?!!" I guess it might take a while for my brain not to have that "isn't there something we could be doing , like NOW" feeling
Temptation to fap ain fukkin wit me either. When the thought comes up I just be like FOH I ain bout that life no more.
...however... I was tempted by porn the other night though. Went to the adult toy/ novelty store to pick up a few .....herbs and
spices (starting to appreciate sex alot more) ,hadnt been there in a long time but so while the dike cashier showing me what's new what's popular (and flirtin wit me
...that new swagger
) she points me to some shyt on the other side of the store. While walking over there I had to pass the huge porn book and movie section. Long story short I walk by the shelves holding the classic ButtMan ,AssLover , LegShow magazines. Ya know them 100page thick mfers. Had em in bundles of 3 in plastic marked "3 for $9.99". Them shyts took up the whole wall and I just stopped in my tracks. I was COMPELLED to reach out and pick one up to look at the hos on the cover. Then i felt compelled to pick up ALL THE MFERS to browse the hos on the cover. Then my mind started talkin "hmmm 3 for $9.99 ain bad
".....then I remembered my new life style like "
WTF am I thinkin??!!...immediately put that shyt down
and went on to accomplish what I came in there for.I'm committed to this shyt I ain fukkin playin!!!!!

Damn... Its been a week already?





