part of me is becoming a misanthropist and I don't like it.

[*L*E*G*A*C*Y*]

Misanthropy is described as a hatred of humanity and society.

I'm starting to just really hate people. Or is it just because I've had to deal with so much hate in life directed towards me? Or is it because I don't like where this society is going with how vain, materialistic, and money hungry it is? Or is it because I see the success people have and I don't have it? Or is it because I see very few places for myself in this world? Or is it because I just suck as a person? Or is it because i have so many clashes with people? Like they are the wall I seek to break down.

I know it seems weird that I'm discussing this on a message board with other people...but I don't know.

It's even getting to the point where I don't even feel like talking to women. Or anybody else other than small talk.

I'm just sick of people constantly being in my way when I try to do....ANYTHING.

I want to get a job to make money to survive...they're always saying no cause they have some sort of problem with me.
I want to find an apartment....they're always saying no because they don't want me in or around their place beighborhood.
People who think the only good things I can provide them with is money or drugs...
People who refuse to give me a chance to do anything.

If I had $10 million dollars shyt the game would over. Then I could finally be that person that I've always wanted to be. Give back to the hood. Fund and provide underprivileged kids with educational tools and better learning facilities. Build skatepark that kids in the hood can use. Start a skate team and put tons of talented kids on it that don't have the opportunities to shine an opportunity. Make a dent in life. Actually be something great in my eyes. Actually not worry about shyt like bills and rent. I feel like a fukking lower and a failure still worrying about this at 30 but I had no idea how to even adjust in this society and that's why I fukking hate it and the people in it that are flourishing.

I don't want to be this way. I've been hateful and angry at this society, people, things and stuff for too long man. I just want to flourish and be happy...but this society and the people within it are driving me I feel like to be some animal that's begging to be caged up. I'm sick of feeling this way. It's like the way I felt being some angry young teen mad at the world hasn't left at 30 and it's taking a toll on my mental and physical help. And feeling like I'm alone (I know I am) and I have no one else to talk to is making me worse.

I've been taking meds for anxiety and depression...but the anger and hatred of people is still there.

I just don't want this to destroy me...cause it almost has.

 

[Sierra Mist]

This is one of those life challenges whether either you'll overcome and be an inspiration to someone else, or you will fail and this will consume you. You gotta look at your circumstances. Do you need to just move to another city and get a fresh start? Or do you have things you can work on to project a better image for yourself? Have you found any connections that can help you?

There's so much to evaluate. The door is never fully shut unless you shut it yourself.

 

[Oceanicpuppy]

Be Brave, you can do some of those things on your list without money. Also have fun.

Maybe you're scared of becoming great...? You recognize your potential to be great and it might be scaring you into anxiety.

It's ok to a successful and do great things and don't worry about the potential "hate" you might come across

 

[*L*E*G*A*C*Y*]

Be Brave, you can do some of those things on your list without money. Also have fun.

Maybe you're scared of becoming great...? You recognize your potential to be great and it might be scaring you into anxiety.

It's ok to a successful and do great things and don't worry about the potential "hate" you might come across

I guess.

I'm at a weird point in my life. I just worry about my family too much...and worry about the future. And worry about the scales I set I my own mind. It's weird.

 

[The Coochie Assassin]

I feel where u coming from but honestly its up to u to get over your view of the world and how people treat u. You letting your emotions get the best of u. I suggest getting into Stoicism.

 

[Dwolf]

All this shyt is temporary so why give a fukk
With that being said, got damn man you need to go get laid

 

[acri1]

Eh...been there and done that. I probably crossed that bridge in like...high school.

 

[scarlxrd]

I guess.

I'm at a weird point in my life. I just worry about my family too much...and worry about the future. And worry about the scales I set I my own mind. It's weird.

One day at a time, man. Don't try to be a man of success but be a man of value.

 

[Taadow]

People who refuse to give me a chance to do anything.

I think we've found the problem.



I'll say this: it seems like you have righteous hatred. It's okay to hate things that suck,
There is a place for that, but you should keep it in that place and not let it consume you.

You seem to me to be a creative person. So all you have to do is figure out
how to create your own "chances" instead of waiting for people to give them to you.

 

[*L*E*G*A*C*Y*]

All this shyt is temporary so why give a fukk
With that being said, got damn man you need to go get laid

I really do. Seriously.

 

[KOohbt]

Misanthropy is described as a hatred of humanity and society.

I'm starting to just really hate people. Or is it just because I've had to deal with so much hate in life directed towards me? Or is it because I don't like where this society is going with how vain, materialistic, and money hungry it is? Or is it because I see the success people have and I don't have it? Or is it because I see very few places for myself in this world? Or is it because I just suck as a person? Or is it because i have so many clashes with people? Like they are the wall I seek to break down.

I know it seems weird that I'm discussing this on a message board with other people...but I don't know.

It's even getting to the point where I don't even feel like talking to women. Or anybody else other than small talk.

I'm just sick of people constantly being in my way when I try to do....ANYTHING.

I want to get a job to make money to survive...they're always saying no cause they have some sort of problem with me.
I want to find an apartment....they're always saying no because they don't want me in or around their place beighborhood.
People who think the only good things I can provide them with is money or drugs...
People who refuse to give me a chance to do anything.

If I had $10 million dollars shyt the game would over. Then I could finally be that person that I've always wanted to be. Give back to the hood. Fund and provide underprivileged kids with educational tools and better learning facilities. Build skatepark that kids in the hood can use. Start a skate team and put tons of talented kids on it that don't have the opportunities to shine an opportunity. Make a dent in life. Actually be something great in my eyes. Actually not worry about shyt like bills and rent. I feel like a fukking lower and a failure still worrying about this at 30 but I had no idea how to even adjust in this society and that's why I fukking hate it and the people in it that are flourishing.

I don't want to be this way. I've been hateful and angry at this society, people, things and stuff for too long man. I just want to flourish and be happy...but this society and the people within it are driving me I feel like to be some animal that's begging to be caged up. I'm sick of feeling this way. It's like the way I felt being some angry young teen mad at the world hasn't left at 30 and it's taking a toll on my mental and physical help. And feeling like I'm alone (I know I am) and I have no one else to talk to is making me worse.

I've been taking meds for anxiety and depression...but the anger and hatred of people is still there.

I just don't want this to destroy me...cause it almost has.

Breh, you just gotta man up. You clearly have goals. What you should do is spend every moment working towards them. Set some small goals and knock em out. You get a natural high from accomplishing goals. And umm. Smoke some. That shyt evens me out no matter what.

 

[*L*E*G*A*C*Y*]

I think we've found the problem.



I'll say this: it seems like you have righteous hatred. It's okay to hate things that suck,
There is a place for that, but you should keep it in that place and not let it consume you.

You seem to me to be a creative person. So all you have to do is figure out
how to create your own "chances" instead of waiting for people to give them to you.

Yea...I want to make my own opportunities....I don't want to have to beg for handouts.

But it all starts somewhere.

 

[Scientific Playa]

Misanthropy is described as a hatred of humanity and society.

I'm starting to just really hate people. Or is it just because I've had to deal with so much hate in life directed towards me? Or is it because I don't like where this society is going with how vain, materialistic, and money hungry it is? Or is it because I see the success people have and I don't have it? Or is it because I see very few places for myself in this world? Or is it because I just suck as a person? Or is it because i have so many clashes with people? Like they are the wall I seek to break down.

I know it seems weird that I'm discussing this on a message board with other people...but I don't know.

It's even getting to the point where I don't even feel like talking to women. Or anybody else other than small talk.

I'm just sick of people constantly being in my way when I try to do....ANYTHING.

I want to get a job to make money to survive...they're always saying no cause they have some sort of problem with me.
I want to find an apartment....they're always saying no because they don't want me in or around their place beighborhood.
People who think the only good things I can provide them with is money or drugs...
People who refuse to give me a chance to do anything.

If I had $10 million dollars shyt the game would over. Then I could finally be that person that I've always wanted to be. Give back to the hood. Fund and provide underprivileged kids with educational tools and better learning facilities. Build skatepark that kids in the hood can use. Start a skate team and put tons of talented kids on it that don't have the opportunities to shine an opportunity. Make a dent in life. Actually be something great in my eyes. Actually not worry about shyt like bills and rent. I feel like a fukking lower and a failure still worrying about this at 30 but I had no idea how to even adjust in this society and that's why I fukking hate it and the people in it that are flourishing.

I don't want to be this way. I've been hateful and angry at this society, people, things and stuff for too long man. I just want to flourish and be happy...but this society and the people within it are driving me I feel like to be some animal that's begging to be caged up. I'm sick of feeling this way. It's like the way I felt being some angry young teen mad at the world hasn't left at 30 and it's taking a toll on my mental and physical help. And feeling like I'm alone (I know I am) and I have no one else to talk to is making me worse.

I've been taking meds for anxiety and depression...but the anger and hatred of people is still there.

I just don't want this to destroy me...cause it almost has.

please research the dangers of taking serotonin inhibitors(SSRIs). a relative was on them and he was talking extra reckless. most of those mass shooters that we read about in the news were taking some form of anxiety and depression drugs. the pharmaceutical industry has some bad stuff out there in the marketplace.

The Proven Dangers of Antidepressants
http://breggin.com/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=196

While stopping short of concluding the antidepressants definitely cause suicide, the FDA warned that they might do so in a small percentage of children and adults. In the debate over drug-induced suicide, little attention has been given to the FDA’s additional warning that certain behaviors are “known to be associated with these drugs,” including “anxiety, agitation, panic attacks, insomnia, irritability, hostility, impulsivity, akathisia (severe restlessness), hypomania, and mania.”

From agitation and hostility to impulsivity and mania, the FDA’s litany of antidepressant-induced behaviors is identical to that of PCP, methamphetamine and cocaine—drugs known to cause aggression and violence. These older stimulants and most of the newer antidepressants cause similar effects as a result of their impact on a neurotransmitter in the brain called serotonin.
For more than a decade, I have documented in books and scientific reports how this stimulation or activation profile can lead to out-of-control behavior, including violence.


https://www.google.com/search?q=ser...e=utf-8#q=serotonin+inhibitors+are+dangerous+

 

[BlackAchilles]

I used to be severely depressed; owning up to being a near total misanthrope has help me moved on.

 

[Scientific Playa]

Big Pharma’s Psychotropic and Other Drug Problems

http://www.activistpost.com/2015/02/big-pharmas-psychotropic-and-other-drug.html



Psychiatric Drugs—Just the Facts

http://www.cchrint.org/psychiatric-drugs/