Apparently being Hugh Hefner's numero uno bunny isn't all it's cracked up to be. Holly Madison reveals in her new tell-all,
Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny that she was so miserable while she lived in the mansion that she attempted suicide.
In the book, out June 23, Holly explains that dating the Playboy mogul, "a man who was old enough to be my grandfather," drove her to despair.
She recalls lying in the bath at the Playboy mansion in 2002 contemplating drowning herself. "If I just put my head under water and take a deep breath in, it would all be over," she writes. "I wondered, would anyone even miss me?"
"Maybe it was the pot and the alcohol, but drowning myself seemed like the logical way to escape the ridiculous life I was leading."
For anyone who tuned into
The Girls Next Door as an, err, guilty pleasure, it seemed like Hugh's seven gals had a lavishly fun life, but according to Holly they were all actually "vacant," and just "going through the motions."
"Everyone thinks that the infamous metal gate was meant to keep people out. But I grew to feel it was meant to lock me in."
Holly said that Hugh, now 89, cultivated a hostile environment in which the women were pitted against each other.
When Holly ultimately decided to leave, she says in her book that Playboy Enterprises tried to bribe her to stay by offering to put her in Hef's will.
"The will stated that $3,000,000 would be bestowed to Holly Madison at the time of his death (provided I still lived in the Mansion). At the time, it was more money than I'd ever know what to do with … But I didn't want it. I actually pitied him for stooping to that level," she wrote in an excerpt quoted by
Us Weekly.
Holly is now happily married with a 2-year-old daughter, Rainbow, who she hopes will someday read her book.
"I want her to understand why I made the choices I made," Madison told
Us. "And hopefully learn from them and not make stupid mistakes herself.
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