You don't understand. Probably a young dude. You reach late-30's without hitting certain milestones and it can feel like this.
You're not afraid of people anymore, you're young enough to still have a certain instinct and energy but you're too old to really do anything with it. Ideally you have a family, kids, or career to keep you inline and responsible. But if you don't. Whew.
It's always the bald head nikkas in the hood Flippin out on young nikkas lmao.
I had similar altercation with a dude from my hood who was in late 20s/early 30s who was tryna extort young nikkas selling our punk ass weed. This was when haze was what considered exotic at the time. We had it and he was selling some complete trash and was upset we was coming up.
Like nikka! It's our time now. If you still nickle and diming and you next to 18 year Olds tryna hustle you did something wrong.
Long story short. Fights broke out with this older nikka. His ego bruised so it led to him not wanting to back down because we was lil nikkas and it escalated almost to guns.
He got a reality check from his superiors and he fell back, he was broke, his status in the hood was changing .
This same nikka would try to mack your girl infront of you and then try to snuff you when you wasn't looking to knock you out infront your girl. So many fukking fights because of this nikka. That transition from being young vs accepting your age be having folks getting killed. Gotta learn to leave the party.
That's why you find alot of old heads get murdered by a young nikka.