Sometimes I have this theory about P's recklessness, right.
Dude got sickle cell. I've seen firsthand what that does to some people. Combination of a lifetime of eating opiates, chronic pain and the thought of having a low life expectancy.
P really just may not give a shyt if he dies today.
He was just a naive kid from a decent family who tried to fit in with some project nikkas that have been knowing each other since grade school. They always considered him an outsider and treated him as such.