Brehs really be in their feelings on the coli
Your problem is that you have abandonment issues from when you were a child. Maybe at some point in your life, someone made you feel like you were wrong or bad for being yourself. And now you care too much about what others think of you and how they see you. Stop trying to project the image you want of yourself, and be content with who you are. Whether or not someone likes you is their prerogative. Keep telling yourself you're ugly and unconfident and yes, thats what you will be. Keep telling yourself the opposite even if you dont believe it, and eventually you will. You've been conditioned to be negative and critical of yourself. And your dad wasnt present or did a good job of teaching you to embrace manhood.