damn breh u went off the deep end angry drunk texting her. u should just cut that one completely off. I told u dont text her again and she may come back but now thats over with.
I think u should take a step back from women, social media, dating apps, alcohol, and go in monk mode for a few months. Get on your IT grind and try taking up weightlifting, daily 10-20 min meditation, reading nonfiction books and a martial art like bjj or muay thai to build up your confidence and get around men you can build camaraderie with. I think you are trying to use women to fill a void in your life and that's never going to go well for you.