Aite brehs, I normally don't get too deep on here but I'm starting to find myself dealing with "Situational" depression. Just to preface, I've been in Germany since February.I'm here alone, fiance and rest of family(mom,dad,etc) are in the States. I was initially in Frankfurt, it was very diverse, not America but the similarities made the transition easier, but one or two times, I found myself in my hotel room feeling like the walls were closing in, hard to breathe etc. I never experienced it before so I chalked it up to being homesick, started to go out with my coworkers more etc. But at the beginning of May, I moved to a smaller city about 150k, essentially no black people. I've dealt with some ignorance and a couple episodes of straight out racism. In a vacuum, they don't bother me but here that shyt is weighing on me. I have two months left on this assignment (here training for work) but I really don't think I can do it. I never really understood what it meant to be depressed but I'm starting to. (not having suicidal thoughts or anything) but i the helpless feeling will drive you crazy.
But i've done some research over the last 24 hours and anxiety/depression affects a large percentage of expats, so I'm wondering has anyone here dealt with situational anxiety/depression? I dont think this is a chronic problem because I've never had these problems before but I'm at a crossroads. I dont know if i should inform my job and try to come home, not sure how that will affect my career progression going forward either.But I dont think i can tough it out man, I literally hate it here. So if yall got words of wisdom or some experiences you wanna share, that would be much appreciated as I try to figure out what my next move is.
TL:DR - experiencing bouts of anxiety and depression in a new country. Curious to see how other people have dealt with similar situations.
But i've done some research over the last 24 hours and anxiety/depression affects a large percentage of expats, so I'm wondering has anyone here dealt with situational anxiety/depression? I dont think this is a chronic problem because I've never had these problems before but I'm at a crossroads. I dont know if i should inform my job and try to come home, not sure how that will affect my career progression going forward either.But I dont think i can tough it out man, I literally hate it here. So if yall got words of wisdom or some experiences you wanna share, that would be much appreciated as I try to figure out what my next move is.
TL:DR - experiencing bouts of anxiety and depression in a new country. Curious to see how other people have dealt with similar situations.
Hoping I don't regret putting this in TLR but i'm take my chances with the trolls 