Skeletons in my closet

SeveroDrgnfli

SeveroDrgnfli

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I think some things aren't for me anymore because of how I lived my life.

I think people can sense something is off about me. It takes a lot of energy for me to interact with people everyday. It's exhausting. I've done a lot of bad shyt. I don't think it was bad because I didn't know better as a younging. I feel like I have to lie and I feel guilty.

All the girls turn out to be psychotic. All the guys are just as tormented as I am.

I fear this is the rest of my life. And if that's the case I'm going full bukowski. I'd love to write and cook all day. I've done everything I want to do honestly. And I'm tired.


I know if I do this I'm going to fukk it up sooner or later.

People always tell me how talented I am and ask me what school I'm in or what I should pursue with my talents. I want to tell them I'm built to crash.

I just want to be alone. I don't want to accomplish anything. I don't want to be anything. I just don't have the energy anymore.

I used to not talk to people for a couple days. Now it's weeks and months. I just don't want to interact with anyone. It's highly disappointing. I'm not sad. I know what that feels like. I feel like empty. I never thought I run out of gas but I have. It's kind of funny in a sick way.
 
Mr. Somebody

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When you contaminate your spirit with demonic filth it changes your physical chemistry and can make you feel like an outsider among friends. You feel dirty, you feel guilty, you feel like you're living in a joke called life and it becomes difficult to relate to people. Like a wolf mingling among lambs.

To get deeper like slam poets you can meet an individual of like minded filth, and you will be disgusted by them because deep down you do not like yourself or what your actions represent about you and you can see that in them.

The good thing about guilt is that it shows you still have some humanity in you and are at a crossroads to decide which side of the fence you will fall onto. If you do wrong and feel Shame this is better then doing wrong and feeling happy or nothing at all friends because these individuals have chosen a side, the demonic one and that's so demonic, friends.

So let us continue to resist demonic urges and satanic impulses that drive us to contamination. The longer you stay away from filth the more the godly side of you can be unchained from your spirit and shine in place of the filth that now represents you.

Good luck, friend. :sitdown:
 
PeridotPuss

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You're depressed BUT THIS IS THE TIME TO LEVEL UP!

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You can't let this world or the people who live in it break you. Ever. Regardless of what you've done or who you are.

Do you exercise regularly? (Exercise is often referred to as the WONDER DRUG) consistent exercise can resolve soooooo many of life's physical pain and mental/emotional ailments.

Survival and thriving isn't just existing day to day .....or just getting by....it's using the sheer will power of your human existence and consciousness to resist and eventually defeat the lies many of us hear everyday.

No one understands me.
No one cares.
Nobody loves/wants me.
I'm not special.
I'm not good/smart/accomplished/attractive enough.

This is not truth. Truth is we are each alone and each powerful, each contributing in our own ways to the total experience of consciousness/spirit/the God mind.

The only person who can give up on you. ...is you.

If you're looking for your way. ...your out....id say get out of the house and start RUNNING and run miiiles, run until all there is the sounds of your own breath and your mind is quiet. Run until you're dead tired and want to quit, want to give up....so you realize the only thing that keeps you going... is you.
 
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