You reap what you sow but its not to late to start preparing for the next harvest moon
i feel you breh....that passion will come.....u just need a divine reasoning to motivate u...I think some things aren't for me anymore because of how I lived my life.
I think people can sense something is off about me. It takes a lot of energy for me to interact with people everyday. It's exhausting. I've done a lot of bad shyt. I don't think it was bad because I didn't know better as a younging. I feel like I have to lie and I feel guilty.
All the girls turn out to be psychotic. All the guys are just as tormented as I am.
I fear this is the rest of my life. And if that's the case I'm going full bukowski. I'd love to write and cook all day. I've done everything I want to do honestly. And I'm tired.
I know if I do this I'm going to fukk it up sooner or later.
People always tell me how talented I am and ask me what school I'm in or what I should pursue with my talents. I want to tell them I'm built to crash.
I just want to be alone. I don't want to accomplish anything. I don't want to be anything. I just don't have the energy anymore.
I used to not talk to people for a couple days. Now it's weeks and months. I just don't want to interact with anyone. It's highly disappointing. I'm not sad. I know what that feels like. I feel like empty. I never thought I run out of gas but I have. It's kind of funny in a sick way.