I have a very close friend that was a professional model back when we were younger, and she used to tell me similar stories…
She would say that a lot of the men did homosexual acts, but they didn’t see themselves as gay at all, just as doing what they needed to do to fulfill a lifelong dream, whether they liked it or not.
Obviously, my understanding level of this was on 0, but she’s hella liberal and understanding, and would try to get me to think of it as me playing my sport that I worked my whole life for, and deciding to do the act that no one would know about to make a team or change my families life forever etc.
I think as a woman, she doesn’t understand the element of disgust straight man would feel doing anything at all with another man…women are more liberal with their sexuality, but I would rather be homeless or in a shelter, hand to above, then get down like that. To each their own though…