Has/is anybody dealing with/dealt with this?
Over the last couple of months/weeks Ive been feeling really uncomfortable around people and large crowds. It's been nearly getting to the point where I don't want to leave my apartment either at times (i leave only when i have to) and now it's making me weary of having a desk job or other job where i have to be around people. Just them watching me, talking about me, quietely judging me in the back of their minds, it eventually just gets to me to the point where i think there's something wrong with me or im wearing something wrong or being awkward or being intrusive and then it eventually stresses me out and tires me. There's been a moment where i had a panic attack and opted to take a cab instead of a train cause i didnt want to be around people.
Its funny though...i have my friends and go out pretty frequently and i try to stay active and out and about but just thinking about being around people and being so aware of myself and my surroundings i just get uncomfortable at times and want to be alone and not seen. It's almost a phobia.
But it's like...there's nothing wrong with anybody (that i know of) its just this fear of being in an embarassing situation and having people stare at me or make me feel uncomfortable that's i think of sometimes that makes me not want to be around people or social situations at times.
Over the last couple of months/weeks Ive been feeling really uncomfortable around people and large crowds. It's been nearly getting to the point where I don't want to leave my apartment either at times (i leave only when i have to) and now it's making me weary of having a desk job or other job where i have to be around people. Just them watching me, talking about me, quietely judging me in the back of their minds, it eventually just gets to me to the point where i think there's something wrong with me or im wearing something wrong or being awkward or being intrusive and then it eventually stresses me out and tires me. There's been a moment where i had a panic attack and opted to take a cab instead of a train cause i didnt want to be around people.
Its funny though...i have my friends and go out pretty frequently and i try to stay active and out and about but just thinking about being around people and being so aware of myself and my surroundings i just get uncomfortable at times and want to be alone and not seen. It's almost a phobia.
But it's like...there's nothing wrong with anybody (that i know of) its just this fear of being in an embarassing situation and having people stare at me or make me feel uncomfortable that's i think of sometimes that makes me not want to be around people or social situations at times.
I don't know if it's really social anxiety for me but I can relate.
I live by the flawless magnificent philosophy called "people ain't shyt". 
I do my best to avoid them. Unless some how it can advance me forward.
Most mofos in this society are out for their own interest and could careless how you feel or what's on your heart.
So you got to be cut throat and look out for yourself first. Everyone else second.
That doesn't mean it's not good people out there but for the most part people ain't shyt until proven otherwise.
