The Nigerian
The Realest Member of TheColi
Over the past 27 years it's been made abundantly clear to me that I am almost universally hated.
The first time someone pulled me aside to tell me this was in 2nd or 3rd grade. A kid named Dean once confided in me that "Everyone hates you."
"That's not true." I initially contested, "They like my brother…"
"That's your brother, they hate you."
"Everybody?"
"Nobody likes you. It's not because you're Black. It's because we don't like you."
The funny thing about that last part is that I hear some variation of that sentiment directed toward me about once every 3 to 6 months or so, not including what I read online.
Most of the time I can just ignore the lingering hatred that laces most of my interpersonal interactions with people. In fact, most times dealing with the hate can be motivating. I get a lot of work done purely out of spite. However, sometimes it can get overwhelming.
Lately a lot of good things have been happening in my life but I'm pretty sure hate will get in the way of actual success.
I sit here, alone, in the dark, reflecting on a lifetime of enduring unending hatred. I'm so exhausted.
Is anyone else here damn near universally hated? Or am I alone in this?
The first time someone pulled me aside to tell me this was in 2nd or 3rd grade. A kid named Dean once confided in me that "Everyone hates you."
"That's not true." I initially contested, "They like my brother…"
"That's your brother, they hate you."
"Everybody?"
"Nobody likes you. It's not because you're Black. It's because we don't like you."
The funny thing about that last part is that I hear some variation of that sentiment directed toward me about once every 3 to 6 months or so, not including what I read online.
Most of the time I can just ignore the lingering hatred that laces most of my interpersonal interactions with people. In fact, most times dealing with the hate can be motivating. I get a lot of work done purely out of spite. However, sometimes it can get overwhelming.
Lately a lot of good things have been happening in my life but I'm pretty sure hate will get in the way of actual success.
I sit here, alone, in the dark, reflecting on a lifetime of enduring unending hatred. I'm so exhausted.
Is anyone else here damn near universally hated? Or am I alone in this?
