I remember when was Pac died to this day.
I was on the three king drive bus by Michael Reese hospital where I was born.
I was around the hospital cause my play sister almost died from a appendicitis rupture and surgery.
She pulled out okay but almost passed, too.
Somebody yelled no not pac, out a car and I turned on my Walkman to the radio by digital preset.
I actually cried about Pac getting killed.
As real talk,....i just kinda knew he was gonna pull through like he always did.
Duke was like that nikka that made you hate his antics and actions.
Yet, when he had an interview he would endear you to him after all his ignorance, defiance and actions.
With incredible commentary and well spoken intelligence when he was focused.
Hearing he did not hold on.
it took me back to a time when I was a real fan before he acted a damn fool.
To make me fall out of favor with his whole shyt.
Plus his whole cadre of overprocessed fans.
I remember big's death was one I had been prepared for.
I actually thought mobb deep's prodigy would get killed for some odd reason, back then.
So when it happened I was more in shock and a little stronger not to shed a tear, on the very day of his death.
To be honest I did not cry about big till, the end of that awful bio movie.
When it goes off and they show the funeral.
Just how crazy the celebration was and back then you did not get the whole scene on the net via stream of the footage at the time.
When I got to see the whole celebration on the movie.
That fukked me up, big time.
I sat with the blunt mad fukked up.
I was with my little goon squad of my lil man's & em, too.
They was looking at their leader like damn...
Plus, all during the pre-release bootleg viewing.
I was vocal about big's portrayal and how he hooked up with faith as phoney.
It is weird, too.
As I was never a big advocate of both of them as a fan or artist.
I had their twelve's in certain spots.
Like I had juicy for unbelievable b side the first day.
I have the first two Pac's on tape.
Plus poetic justice on tape for the real violent.
Plus flex on tape, too.
I still remember being conflicted about the MCA style record making for juicy at the time.
I used to be big on them as unknowns before they blew and were overprocessed.
It still fukked me up in some way or another, though.
Big l's death hurt me more, though.
As that was my favorite rapper from the early nineties era.
Plus in 92 till illmatic he was the best.
So when he died I sat in my cubicle really fukked up over that shyt.
I even sent money to the big l foundation.
Art Barr