Mr.bocario
Superstar
I know it might sound brazy, but sometimes you have to speak the life you want into existence. Mediate, pray, etc
Suicidal Thoughts & How To Overcome
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Good first step to recovery. I had the same experiences in HS.
Thanks man...did you eventually resolve your root cause of depression?...How long did it take?...I'm not use to opening up and talking to people...especially about seeing a therapist...let alone seeing one...but it is soooo necessary in order for me to get past this and overcome...
That doesn't sound brazy at all...meditation and prayer is something I lack...my therapist has got me meditating tho and told me O needes to pray so a Doctor just backed your recommendation...I stopped praying years ago...I mean like 15 years ago...don't even known if there's a god no more...so what I'm prayin' for use to be my thought and this elder told me 15 years ago that "God" wouldn't listen to my prayers since I didn't fukk with the kingdom hall no more...that fukked me up and stopped me from praying ever since...even though now...I know it's some bullshyt...I'll say some shyt like "Thank you Universe...etc...Amen"...and that's my prayer whenever I do pray...I just feel like it's a wasted effort when I pray but am still hurting and dealing with the same situations and circumstances...
Hungerpain
Banned
Yo how much you pay for your therapist if you dont mind me asking?
Not really becoming buddhist helped but then I kinda abandoned that path. I have become better though. I am slowly unfolding myself. It will take time .
Yo how much you pay for your therapist if you dont mind me asking?
I'm on medicaid...so it's free...otherwise they would charge according to your income on what they call a "sliding scale" pay...because costs will be different for each person as everyone doesn't make the same...I can tell you this though...I did court-ordered anger management back in 2010 on a sliding scale and it was like $40 a week...maybe $35...but they should "work" with you...I go to therapy at the mental health department for the county I live in...check out the mental health department in your county for therapy...it should be cheaper there...
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Saw this on the metro while going home from work today...The Universe is speakin' to me...think I'm gonna do this walk in October!...
I'm glad that you have become better breh!!!...Best wishes on your path and in life itself...
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Hungerpain
Banned
Good looks my G.
Bout to check that department out.
Respect.
No problem homie!...Respect as well and best wishes to ya!...
The Emperor
Paid Agent
Ever feel like givin' up...or just sayin' fukk this shyt and ending it?...I told myself that if I keep takin' L's like I've been for the last decade and a half or more...(losin' jobs...place to stay...no girls...no friends)...I'm endin' this shyt...over the years I've gotten real comfortable with the thought of death as I believe death is an illusion...your consciousness never dies...However, I have a daughter that loves me to pieces and she's the only one whoever showed me what "real love" is...10 years ago when she was 2 she stopped me from hanging myself or the contemplation of it...I had tied a few handwraps together and tied them to the ceiling beam in the basement...debating for 10 minutes as I stood on a chair whether to hang myself...while debating I hear my daughter screaming..."I want my daddy...I want my daddy"...I step down off the chair and go up the stairs to where she is crying and I see her sitting on the floor up against the pantry door...crying "I want my daddy...I want my daddy"...I picked her up and held her in my arms...she stopped crying and that was the end of that...
A few years ago or maybe one...I sat in the garage with my .38 debating leavin' this mug...I locked myself in the garage so my mother and daughter couldn't open the door...I'm in the garage with the garage door open...I can see a neighbor far away across the street in their driveway messin' round with their car...I let off 2 rounds...nobody heard it...would have been dead with the garage door open in broad daylight...and my mom and daughter didn't hear the shots either...when I crashed my beamer last summer...I was lowkey hopin' that I died...
If there's a breh or brehette reading this shyt...and has felt the same way or does now...don't fukkin' kill yourself...somebody loves you...I'm getting help now...and see a therapist every 2 weeks...I was diagnosed with clinical depression 2 months ago...
I have anxiety too...and now just getting medication for this shyt...which is helping tremendously...I would just be sleep all day...and not getting up for work if it wasn't for that zoloft......so with the therapy and meds...I'm looking forward to overcoming my depression and suicidal thoughts...I hope that this serves to help a breh or brehette going thru the same thing and to get help if you haven't already...
Peace 2 my brehettes and in the words of 2Pac..."Keep Ya Head Up"
Peace 2 my brehs and in the words of 2Pac..."If My Homies Call"...ya know I gotchu
#1 Get rid of your gun
#2 Get a pen paper and truthfully write down what hurts you inside
#3 Develop a plan to better your situation
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likewise. It gets better.I'm glad that you have become better breh!!!...Best wishes on your path and in life itself...
