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thats what im saying. i have no intent at all and never have to ever want to "do something with my life"

its not a cowardly excuse at all. prison life is very hard physically and mentally and i have prepared myself physically so im at a level where i can handle myself in fight situations. more than adequately might i add. you think boxing is easy?

Now you are talking in circles. You just said you have never wanted to do something with your life, yet your goal is to go into a physically demanding situation like prison where you think all you do is fight (which is far from the truth regardless of what you have seen on tv). I have a friend who is a C.O. at a major prison and that shyt happens but not to the degree you think. I think you are basing alot of this on mass media depictions of prison life. Now you are asking me about bixing but you are dancing away from the fact that planning to go to prison to "fight" doesn't make any sense...you know prison will give you food and a place to sleep and you won't have any bills...you don't know how great p*ssy is because you are a virgin, so you won't miss women...its the perfect place in your eyes because you don't have to try to do anything but live in a fukking cell...that's it...that's what you want out of life homie, just admit it and stop making it like its some grand goal or something
 

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You starting to sound like Capital Steez breh.

um his music hits home with me very much. liek if you listen to his music and his verses on the pro era tapes. you will hear him say on MULTIPLE occasions on how he would never commit suicide. like hes realy trying to tell us something. that peep the aprocalypse tape that was released right before he died he says it on there.

Uh, what do you mean by looking deep inside yourself? Like, you're going to go to prison and... sit there, thinking? Trying to find out what?

You don't care about freedom? You wouldn't mind being locked up?

i feel like we are all in prison already. as far as im concerned. everyone is stuck in this ego rat race where everyone wants to be successful. freedom is on the mind. you can be locked in isolation all day and be free. i learned that in school. they had an isolation system for all the bad kids where we would just sit in our own booth all day and do nothing. see what im saying
 

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um his music hits home with me very much. liek if you listen to his music and his verses on the pro era tapes. you will hear him say on MULTIPLE occasions on how he would never commit suicide. like hes realy trying to tell us something. that peep the aprocalypse tape that was released right before he died he says it on there.



i feel like we are all in prison already. as far as im concerned. everyone is stuck in this ego rat race where everyone wants to be successful. freedom is on the mind. you can be locked in isolation all day and be free. i learned that in school. they had an isolation system for all the bad kids where we would just sit in our own booth all day and do nothing. see what im saying

Prison has nothing to do with this mindstate homie...you can do this literally anywhere, but you refuse to admit that you want to go to prison because its easy for you for the food and shelter and lack of having to find a job and money and approach p*ssy...you a cool dude on here, but you are trying to avoid the truth here
 

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um his music hits home with me very much. liek if you listen to his music and his verses on the pro era tapes. you will hear him say on MULTIPLE occasions on how he would never commit suicide. like hes realy trying to tell us something. that peep the aprocalypse tape that was released right before he died he says it on there.



i feel like we are all in prison already. as far as im concerned. everyone is stuck in this ego rat race where everyone wants to be successful. freedom is on the mind. you can be locked in isolation all day and be free. i learned that in school. they had an isolation system for all the bad kids where we would just sit in our own booth all day and do nothing. see what im saying

His music resonated with me as well breh but for different reasons.

Like yourself he was a very young man who lacked guidance and took his own life at a young age instead of developing his talent and craft.

He thought he was confronting his inner demons by but in the end all he did was run away from them and in the process leaving his mother to bury a son.
 

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breh you literally said in the original post that your plan is to go to prison, so what are you talking about??? If its such an inevitability, why haven't you gone yet? You've done crazy shyt but you haven't gone, so how is it an inevitability...just call it like it is dude:

You are afraid to TRY in life. Period. Close thread.

what do you mean afraid to try in life? im confused here.

by your definiton of try i try in life everyday. you think its easy to run 5 miles a day and keep your weight down to a certain limit. you think its easy to box with a broken knuckle. i sweat out more in a day than you will in a month.

like i really sweat out pounds daily.

i think you may be confused here. i dont see in circles or try to talk i ncircles because i dont actively TRY to do anything. i just do whats on my mind at the time.
 

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Steez was a schizophrenic no disrespect to the dead but let's be real. He lost a lotta weight, was light skin, was a popular rapper, and still took his own life. Everything was going in the right direction but nope :to: :smh:
 

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what do you mean afraid to try in life? im confused here.

by your definiton of try i try in life everyday. you think its easy to run 5 miles a day and keep your weight down to a certain limit. you think its easy to box with a broken knuckle. i sweat out more in a day than you will in a month.

like i really sweat out pounds daily.

i think you may be confused here. i dont see in circles or try to talk i ncircles because i dont actively TRY to do anything. i just do whats on my mind at the time.

Explain how going to prison would give you "freedom" that you couldn't get outside in the world? It doesn't make sense...fukk all the strive to be the best part...explain here how going to prison doesn't give you an escape from the hardships of life. Please explain.

What you are doing is trying to rationalize to yourself that prison is tougher and the boxing you do is such hard work that it gives you an excuse to do nothing in life but go to jail. You and both know its an escape plan from life because you don't even wanna try. I feel you on not knowing what you want to do, but to not even try is complete bullshyt.
 

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2 can play at this game. lyrics from capital steez. im sure i can find more too :mjpls:


I ain't tapping out unless it's blunt ashes and clouds

And I'd rather die by homicide
Instead of goin' out without a pride


these are real capital steez lyrics. if you click them.

They are real but he did the opposite of what he preached.

Just goes to show deeply troubled he actually was.

If you follow his timeline and read his tumblr you'll see him speak on how he thinks he's the Baphomet and how he need to move on from this dimension.
 

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what do you mean afraid to try in life? im confused here.

by your definiton of try i try in life everyday. you think its easy to run 5 miles a day and keep your weight down to a certain limit. you think its easy to box with a broken knuckle. i sweat out more in a day than you will in a month.

like i really sweat out pounds daily.

i think you may be confused here. i dont see in circles or try to talk i ncircles because i dont actively TRY to do anything. i just do whats on my mind at the time.

I think I get you a little better now. Because you are aimless and just do what's on your mind at the time, you feel like sooner or later you're going to end up locked up for breaking the law, because you didn't try to follow it. Since you just do what you feel like at the time and sometimes that means getting into fights and shyt... even if you don't really try to kill anyone, you still dream like you will, simply for doing shyt without thinking about the future. And the legal consequences are going to catch up with you eventually so it's like an inevitability.

:ohhh:

Well, I still think you should at least try to stay out of prison. I get you think you can be free anywhere, but being outside of jail >>>>>> , in terms of opportunities for growth and self-discovery or whatever you wanna do.
 
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