So when I was a child, I was molested by a member of the church. Normally, that would cause someone to break faith and lose a relationship with God right?
God repressed my memory so I had no recollection of it while it manifested itself into a demon of sexual addiction that I was dealing with since I was a kid.
I was of course addicted to porn and when I got older sex. I manipulated dozens of women for my gratification and hated myself. I was depressed. Last year and the year before, I did some shyt that would put JBO and skeetsinternal to shame. Til this day it's hard for me to decipher from genuine love and lust but I no longer lust after what the flesh wants.
Let's just say between May 2019 and now, God worked a miracle in my spirit after years of battling addiction, praying for it to go away but backtracking to my old habits. I've been celibate, deleted all dating apps, praying, reading and building my relationship with Christ. I've been going about 2 months solid strong.