I mean at times both happen, I realize that.
It's so short lived and pointless bro. Just pure futility. I see younger faces now that I'm older. Getting hammered, not being able to walk, or frontin on the boy even though they know I'm a good looking man.
It's just dumb man. From 18 to 21 I went out from thursday thru sunday, partying then hitting downtown. Holla'n at women, getting too wasted to even remember, poppin adderalls to keep me up, poppin xanny's to black out.
I've woke up naked in a random chciks kitchen before and had to run a half mile with nothing but her rug that I stole on my naked body to find my car.
I have some fun stories man, but at the end, it all means so little. Now I just feel like excelling in life so I have a reason to party. So many are out here partying without reason beyond it's the weekend. Its sad man.]
I think I'm really gonna hop on this kickback wave and start throwing mean kickbacks, with the right people so everyone can get to know each other and network rather than it being about getting smashed and finding a chick to hit from the back