Derek, bruh, dont kill yourself
How would your family feel if they found out you killed yourself over some people who dont even know you irl? The internet didnt raise you, my nikka. SOHH didn't put food in your mouth breh. Aint none of us ever did a goddamn thing for you, yet you're willing to end your life cuz of this fictious world you got too consumed in. It's not worth it, my dude. Consult a therapist, ask the mods to perma ban you from the Coli, and try to get better man cuz suicide aint the way.