it's the family holiday/cuffing season.
lot of people don't like to admit it, but watching all the happy people and being bombarded with cheerful holiday celebration shyt plus all the commercials of folks giving chicks 50k bracelets and bentleys with bows on them wears you thin.
I really REALLY hate this time of year.
Somewhere along the line, I just kinda stopped giving a shyt aabout how bad I feel emotionally.
Feels: "

do it. do it. kill the pain. end this shyt. nobody loves you. you're a failure. your family never gave a shyt, your friends fukked you over, your girlfriends left you, your kids aint live, you did all that shyt you deserve your life you cant even feel love no more you couldnt even kill yourself right you aint never fit no where you never will you aint shyt you aint nothing!"
Me: "

you're right.

"