I'm sitting back reflecting listening to in the rain by the dramatics thinking about how women are losers and whores. Than I started thinking "why do I have so much hatred toward women?"
I think the problem might be me. Women are actually pretty nice to me but I have a preemptive defense mechanism built into my mind like some type of half man half machine hybrid woman hating Robo nikka, so before they even open their mouth I already try to write them off as being scandalous and no good.
If a female is too nice I take it that she have a agenda. But that could be me having low self esteem sub consciously and thinking I'm not good enough so why would she be so nice to a guy like me without having a motive.
I have a shytty arrogant demeanor when it comes to women. Again its a defense mechanism. "let me hurt her , before she hurt me" type of thing. There's times when I purposely ignored chicks and had a shytty attitude because in my head I seen a enemy. I've been a a$$hole for noreason.
It could've stemmed from my high school days where chicks ignored me and some tease me. I held on to that resentment FOR A LONG TIME. even went far as to see if those chicks fell off by stalking their facebook pages. Praying on their fall from grace. (part of me still is).
But in reality woman never did nothing to me. I'm back tracking and woman never did really did shyt to me. So why is the hatred so intense? I don't know know.
I need to check myself and stop dwelling on negative shyt that happens to other people and focus on my own experiences. Because woman have been pretty solid in my personal encounters and I've missed you on alot of opportunities because of my own delusions.
I'am also a little too picky. I like woman that look like Teyonah Parris but I'm delusional. I need to stop holding out for some super bytch that don't exist and pick a nice chick that's ready to build.
I probably could of had sex with many chicks over the years easy but because I was living in this weird isolated world in my head I missed out. All I had to do was be cool, smile a little and engage...boom I would've been having ALOT of sex. I held myself back because of my thinking. That was back when I really wanted sex. Now I think about more important shyt then sex. That's like last on my radar.
For the most part woman are actually cool if you're cool. They're not into critical thinking and dark philosophical thought. They just want to have fun, there's nothing wrong with that. You just have to accept that and entertain me them. Not everybody is going to get that depthful soul analyzing shyt so u keep it to yourself and indulge society bullshyt.
Come to think about it. If I had this same mindset of acceptance I could've been more successful in my career too. The anger of not being able to do things my way held me back for most of life. Sometimes in life you have to compromise and just accept things. Cant change the unchangeable, cant control the uncontrollable.
I think the problem might be me. Women are actually pretty nice to me but I have a preemptive defense mechanism built into my mind like some type of half man half machine hybrid woman hating Robo nikka, so before they even open their mouth I already try to write them off as being scandalous and no good.
If a female is too nice I take it that she have a agenda. But that could be me having low self esteem sub consciously and thinking I'm not good enough so why would she be so nice to a guy like me without having a motive.
I have a shytty arrogant demeanor when it comes to women. Again its a defense mechanism. "let me hurt her , before she hurt me" type of thing. There's times when I purposely ignored chicks and had a shytty attitude because in my head I seen a enemy. I've been a a$$hole for noreason.
It could've stemmed from my high school days where chicks ignored me and some tease me. I held on to that resentment FOR A LONG TIME. even went far as to see if those chicks fell off by stalking their facebook pages. Praying on their fall from grace. (part of me still is).
But in reality woman never did nothing to me. I'm back tracking and woman never did really did shyt to me. So why is the hatred so intense? I don't know know.
I need to check myself and stop dwelling on negative shyt that happens to other people and focus on my own experiences. Because woman have been pretty solid in my personal encounters and I've missed you on alot of opportunities because of my own delusions.
I'am also a little too picky. I like woman that look like Teyonah Parris but I'm delusional. I need to stop holding out for some super bytch that don't exist and pick a nice chick that's ready to build.
I probably could of had sex with many chicks over the years easy but because I was living in this weird isolated world in my head I missed out. All I had to do was be cool, smile a little and engage...boom I would've been having ALOT of sex. I held myself back because of my thinking. That was back when I really wanted sex. Now I think about more important shyt then sex. That's like last on my radar.
For the most part woman are actually cool if you're cool. They're not into critical thinking and dark philosophical thought. They just want to have fun, there's nothing wrong with that. You just have to accept that and entertain me them. Not everybody is going to get that depthful soul analyzing shyt so u keep it to yourself and indulge society bullshyt.
Come to think about it. If I had this same mindset of acceptance I could've been more successful in my career too. The anger of not being able to do things my way held me back for most of life. Sometimes in life you have to compromise and just accept things. Cant change the unchangeable, cant control the uncontrollable.
