Day 21. Idk why I started this in October. I can't stop now. Been doing yoga and working out upon waking up. I'm not bad. I feel okay. Stable.
Day 21. Idk why I started this in October. I can't stop now. Been doing yoga and working out upon waking up. I'm not bad. I feel okay. Stable.

Not gonna lie today is the first day its getting difficult for me
I wouldn't say it's been the first difficult day for me, but it's definitely been the kind of suck ass day where nothing goes right. I definitely would have fapped under normal circumstances.
I expect to make it though.

didn't watch it but this isn't helping.Breh I could be here all day listing things that ain't helping.Still here. Found a video of myself and my ex.didn't watch it but this isn't helping.

Copy.Breh I could be here all day listing things that ain't helping.
The only reason I won't is because I don't want to trigger someone else's setback. Suffice it to say, the devil don't stop working.

. I don't even know what to make of that because I felt like I wasn't thinking about anything sexual that whole day and it hit me out of nowhereAnyone dealing with depression while doing no fap? Because my antidepressants ain't working.
Now, I'm proud of each day I abstain. Oddly enough, my sex drive is lower...
After fapping, I sometimes felt pathetic.![]()





I take antidepressants so they increase my hormones. Including libido. I'm essentially fighting against the things that my antidepressants are fighting to give me. I don't feel anything except frustration and depression. I comfort myself with the idea that suffering and enduring mean you can endure when things are bad. If you can control your urges you can control yourself. It’s a hollow comfort and I'm more and more wondering why I'm doing this. Im reluctant to give up because it's making me realize that a nut isn't what I'm after but intimacy with a woman who wants to understand me. That's also why I quit porn since the intimacy isn't there. It's all heady with me. Never really physical.No. I wonder if you're more depressed because of nofap? Do you feel any pride for having made it this far? Because you should. Its not easy to control your instincts for a month.
After fapping, I sometimes felt pathetic.Now, I'm proud of each day I abstain. Oddly enough, my sex drive is lower...
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