What do you do to fight your suicidal thoughts, brehs?

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i dont be having thoughts like that but when im feeling down i try and meditate. easier said than done though
Second this. Meditating has helped, dare I say cured my depression. Even though I know it works, sometimes it’s hard to even want to do it.

OP I would suggest you meditate, it will cause you to confront those thoughts but 9/10 you’ll be able to defeat them once you confront them.
 

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Hookers and cocaine helped a lot if I'm being honest.

I'm clean now.

I get tempted every once and a while though I can't lie.

Now the idea that I have control of my happiness helps.

I always felt depression as a kid but once I went to a therapist as an adult she told me I was severely depressed.

Nobody is responsible for making me content but myself.

I have programs/routines that I have to do on a daily basis.

Workout.
Eat healthy.
Read books.
@I Drink Water
Take B12 vitamins.

For me, those all help with my depression even if it's just shyt I've convinced myself helps.
 

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OP seek a psychiatrist immediately. I'm serious. Not a therapist, not a psychologist (yet). Find a psychiatrist or see your doctor who will likely refer you to a psychiatrist.

They will get you on a starting dose of anti-depressants. Take them. Forget all the stigmas of "being on meds." Forget whatever you heard about anti-depressants being "dangerous" and "turning you into a zombie." It's the opposite. You feel like a zombie now. You're in danger now. Medical treatment, including anti-depressant medication, will turn you around.

It will take up to 2 weeks for the anti-depressants to kick in. The suicidal ideations will stop. The chest wrestling, room pacing panics will stop. The countless hours spent all day locked to the bed waking up in shame or panic will stop. Your negative thoughts will no longer lose control and consume you. You will feel better. You will begin to do the things you love again. You will listen to music again. You will do your art or your writing or whatever you're dreaming of. You will be eager to speak to friends and family again. You will breathe again and you will be alright.

Stay on them for as long as you need them. It could be a few weeks, months, or even years. Stay on them for as long as you feel you need them and stay in touch with your doctor.

After this find a psychotherapist or a psychologist. Any sort of mental health professional for some talk therapy. This is where the work of navigating your life, your troubles, your thoughts, and behaviors, identifying all your subconscious issues, and getting you on track to a healthier view of yourself and your life begins. Start building up a crew of friends and family you truly love and trust to go alongside your mental health team. You may also seek a spiritual community of your choice, yoga, a nutritionist, meditation, mindfulness, art classes, or other mental wellness activities as you go along. Everything to help you navigate this stage in your life and see your brighter path.

But the first stage is to get IMMEDIATE help from a licensed psychiatrist or doctor. Do not wait OP. Do not wait.

You are not weak for getting help. You are not "sick." You are not "evil," "weird" or a "bad guy." You are going through depression. It does not make you weak. Depression is an illness and there is treatment. Going through it and needing extra help does not make you weak. You are not the only one. You are not out of place in this world. You cannot live with or work through any life decisions, changes, or stressful activities while you are in this state. You must get treatment, and you will be okay. You will be okay OP.

Whatever you are carrying, it is not all your fault. You are not all to blame and you are fine. It's not all over. Whatever you think you're going through you will make it through and you will see life as it is again.

Please reach out if you need to talk man.
 
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Think about something to live for.

Also, think about how your loved ones will feel if you commit suicide.

Honestly, people that does that is selfish as hell.
 

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Another thing OP. If you're locked to the bed and frightened to do anything or speak to anyone right now, I get it. Laying there with just the tv in the background for as long as possible feels more comfortable than ever right now and you could swear. You can stay there helplessly and let the world just spin. I get it, and help is on the way. You will be alright.

Now think back to before you felt this way. Maybe even years back to your kid days. There are probably people and places that brought you tremendous joy. Maybe you had a set of favorite cousins you always hung out with. Maybe a cool Uncle who was like a role model and a confidant to you. Maybe you had a friend or two you always played video games online with. I know being around people might feel like the last thing you'd like to do right now, but before you go straight to the bed think about spending just a few minutes doing something you use to. Talk for a bit on the phone with one of those favorite cousins or even just hang out at his crib like you use to. Hang out with that favorite Uncle a bit or speak to him for a bit if you can. Hit up that friend and maybe play a couple rounds of Call of Duty or 2K or whatever. Just a couple, and then you can go back to bed if you like.

Do not isolate your life and your existence. It is the depression scaring you from being with others and getting out of your room. You will treat this illness. But do this for now and I promise promise promise you will slowly "come back" and realize how great life still is in spite of any set backs we all run into in life.
 

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Smoke weed and don't be sober for too long lmao...

Also having a girlfriend helps
 

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A lot of us need therapy. There's nothing wrong with seeking counseling especially within the black community. Noone can hold in thoughts to yourself and just be normal. shyt's unreal.

Truth be told parenting in the black community, across all diasporas, is inherently horrifying. Point blank period. It has to be told. The stupid shyt and crude parent-child dynamics that we have believed and embraces for generations is terrible. And on top of all the discrimination, violence, and oppression we face outside our homes, we as a people need serious help before we think about conquering or solving anything. So many motherfukkers out here been living with PTSD, severe depression, anxiety all their lives and don't realize it.

Just the other day I went over to my sister's, who is the only parent among my generation of immediate family members, and saw her doing that stupid "let the baby cry. If we respond to the baby we're spoiling her" bullshyt. Another one of those horrible black household parenting traditions that this child (and my sister) will pay for later. So much shyt has to stop. I shake my head in disappointment when I see people on social media speaking affectionately about how hard and how often they were beaten, "popped," "licked" whatever by their fukked up parents if they ever so much as "talked fresh" and proudly plan to do the same, even harder, to their own children. We destroy our youths lives with all that stockholm syndrome "do exactly what my mama use to do to me" tough love shyt and then wonder why our communities are so plagued generation ater generation with violence, crime, drug use, alcoholism, and more broken homes.
 

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eat p*ssy and booty,get my dikk sucked , make beats and money. eat bomb food. not be white
 

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Trouble dont like always. Change is constant, seasons are here for a reason. Dont make a permanent decision off temporary circumstances.

Take life one day, one step,one breath at a time.
 

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Honestly, people that does that is selfish as hell.

No they're not. They are people who succumbed to an illness--the worst illness; an illness of an injured and uncontrollable childhood and mind--that they did not understand and that went ignored by others. If OP can tell his story, and he will, you'd find out the real selfish people were the people he should've been able to trust but failed him, wittingly or not. It's not all his fault. OP just needs to get help so that he can see it for himself.
 
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