What's The Hardest Part About Being You?

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Having to fake being in love with my fiancée because I have a child and I don't want her to grow up how I did.

Christ, you're going to be with a woman you don't even love or attracted too for 18 years? How will you do that? While still being faithful to your marriage while giving your son the image of
a healthy relationship?

Kids can tell when shyt ain't really right, they'll eventually be able to see the dysfunction. Maybe you should talk to her and get therapy. Sometimes a divided household is better than one with dysfunction that's still together. I'm speaking from experience my parents divorced.
 

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Having to fake being in love with my fiancée because I have a child and I don't want her to grow up how I did.
Damnnnn breh, leave breh. You cant fake loving someone, it will show inthe future, you both deserve to be in loving fulfilling relationships
 

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My past and homeboys who I've lost.

I'll get pissed off over something small and it brings back feelings from my past and I flip the fukk out. shyt kills my relationships.

I made it out and Im living good as fukk but I miss my dreams about me and my nikkas buying houses by each other and finally making it out the hood and raising our children together beging good fathers and changing shyt. But now its just me pursuing the dreams cuz they passed away and as much as ima goofy happy dude, it destroys me sometimes cuz we'll never live that youngin hood dream :mjcry:
i get like that sometimes with family. :mjcry: the fact that so many of them never got to see me grown or even teen for that matter... only got grandad left for elderly then my parents :mjcry:
 

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Being able to solve issues and complete projects easily but constantly having to play office politics so the right people get the right credit

Being a black high ranking manager at my job so every black person i meet automatically thinks i am a c00n or as soon as it is just me and them they get mad nikkarish

Friends having mid life crisis and still wanting to go club and parties well into their mid 30's and i constantly have to lie and make excuses because i just don't want to do it anymore

Being neurotic about certain things...like cable management for my pc and home theater system...and constantly trying to make it look neater when half the time I end up making it look worse and putting it back the way I had it...

Knowing about major announcements at work months in advance then acting like i know nothing when it happens...
 

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Seeing shyt that I think is obvious and other people looking at me like I'm crazy. Water is still wet, right? The sky is up and the ground is still down right?
I have to ask b/c little shyt that i take for granted these days is debated. Lmao!

Also I like to take a situation, and view it from afar to see what it looks like. Mentally it's a really cool exercise I used to take my students through to gain perspective.

I do this with friends and family and they think I'm being contrary or insensitive. I sympathize but I also like to tap into personal responsibility as a source or autonomy. If u know realistically that you are actually to blame for most of the fukkery in ur life then you also are the one who has the power to change it. To me it's exhilarating knowing how much power I have over my own life.

But people don't like the idea that their actions are what led them to their current state. They don't hold that orb of power well. They either fall into self-loathing or become defensive and blame others out of denial. Or admit to it quickly and just sit on their autonomy and waste opportunities to make a change.

Procrastination too. Right now as we speak I should be packing for a conference im flying to tomorrow, completing a research based paper, a single case design proposal, logging in behavior data, starting a position paper, running some descriptive statistics for stats class and doing my taxes.

But it's so much more interesting to discuss shyt like this, go walking with my neighbor, or play Overwatch...ooh look that's a cute shirt in Target, omg why is my ex still texting me...oooh I can make a keto apple coffee cake since he cooking orange chicken, I need to get a money order for rent...

...I hate this treadmill...
...gotta pick up some shotgun shells...
Guess I need to shave since it's so hot outsi--oh shyt I still gotta pay that parking ticket.

In short, I'm easily distracted and am only motivated by the rush of the last minute and this has bitten me in the ass a LOT.
Which is why I love men b/c they bring a calming, focused energy to my life.:francis: :lolbron:
 

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Probably being an introvert. The only time I feel like being talkative is when I'm trying to get a woman.

It keeps me from networking which is an important part of life and makes it harder to reach my full potential.

Other than that I'd say dealing with my daughters mom is also a pain In the ass I'd wish on no man.:francis:
 

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1.. Me and my sister haven't spoke in 5 years and she doesn't talk to her own daughter, my niece because she can't control her life decisions... So all my vacation money i been using to help my niece and get her into college soon

2. Besides my girl i have no friends at all... All my true friends live in other states or have families, so i don't even bother them

3.. Trust issues big time..living in L.A. u can't trust 85% of these fools.. fukking snakes...however we will roll together if some other out of state dudes disrespect us and everybody would get a lick in

4.. Cheap cheap cheap... I stay in the dollar stores for napkins, paper towels comet etc... While my girl dumb ass go overpay for the same product
 

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i still feel mentally like a child most days. i have done some "adult' things like going to school and getting a job and being responsible but i cant drive, cant make most foods and rely too much on my family imo. i feel mentally delayed/stuck.
 
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