sorry, apparently i got time to kill

.. maybe it is the urgency of the need??
i was really scared to ask women for favors when i was hurting..
the first time i'd ask to borrow the car.. or stay at her place (like shower, run a load of laundry, etc..
my heart would be pounding- bracing myself if she said no
so clearly i'm not built for all that
i'd just be like "yay, she's ordering a pizza"

i wouldn't even care about what toppings or shyt

cause deep down..
my neediness and humiliation made me choke down on the bat instead of swinging for the fences

but the girl in the screencap- she's straight going for it off rip