Don't know what happened but based on the posts in here, were you contemplating committing that? If so, I'm glad you didn't fam. shyt gets tough but if you can get help, absolutely do it. nikkas think its a sign of weakness but I think it shows strength to want to better yourself mentally. Even before you get to the point where you're getting help, there's things you can do right away, such as getting yourself off any drugs or alcohol you may be using, and eating a bit cleaner and healthier if you have a bad diet.
Overall tho breh glad you ain't commit that. It's a heavy thing to consider and even heavier to go through with.