I'm tired of family calling me incessantly when I'm miserable and trying to figure out my life goals and make a plan. I'm not okay, and they know I'm not okay, but talking to them about it just doesn't help me at all and makes me worse sometimes. I know they love me, but why the fukk do I end up more miserable especially after talking to my mom? Ain't nothin she can tell me that will help. She just gives me moist ass female advice and I get irritated and I can't tell her everything I go through anyway. I love her, but She is far from a therapist.
I hate talking to my family when I'm like this because I just have to get through what I need to get through and then come back to them when I'm done. I've never been the type of dude to reach out for support like that and they never understand that and keep blowing up my phone and annoying me and I don't answer because I don't even want them to hear how miserable I am or go over what I'm going through which will only resurface those emotions tenfold for me. They offer me money which I could use, but I'd rather build my career for long term wealth, not temporary help for family which will cause me to be complacent with my goals.
I just get back into old habits and avoid everyone. It's a recurring theme in my life.
Damn a nikka just vented
I hate talking to my family when I'm like this because I just have to get through what I need to get through and then come back to them when I'm done. I've never been the type of dude to reach out for support like that and they never understand that and keep blowing up my phone and annoying me and I don't answer because I don't even want them to hear how miserable I am or go over what I'm going through which will only resurface those emotions tenfold for me. They offer me money which I could use, but I'd rather build my career for long term wealth, not temporary help for family which will cause me to be complacent with my goals.
I just get back into old habits and avoid everyone. It's a recurring theme in my life.
Damn a nikka just vented



