Butterflies
Losing one of my siblings
Having children and then seeing them die before me
I am not afraid of death. Instead I am afraid of not finishing what I want to before I die
My parents passing away before all my siblings are adults
ive gotten used to the being alone thing in a sense. but i know that i like the solitude and that the real friends i have will be there. even though most left.being alone and being forgotten
i remember i didnt get a call. i just came home from camp and some random white lady was talking with my mother. and i just went inside and played kingdom hearts. then my grandmother called us up and told us that my pops committed suicide. i couldnt really cry until the day of the funeral. saw my quiet reserved mother screaming and sobbing. i just upped and ran out of the funeral. i feel like i cant attend one again.Getting the call one of my parents died. I don't even know if that's really a fear since it's almost inevitable and happens to everybody but Im just really dreading of when it could happen, especially if I have to go through it alone or without a family of my own.
i remember i didnt get a call. i just came home from camp and some random white lady was talking with my mother. and i just went inside and played kingdom hearts. then my grandmother called us up and told us that my pops committed suicide. i couldnt really cry until the day of the funeral. saw my quiet reserved mother screaming and sobbing. i just upped and ran out of the funeral. i feel like i cant attend one again.
im good. it was 8 years ago. but it hardened me to be real. it made me want to do better.Oh wow I am sorry about that. Some people tend to hold in their pain until they actually see it happening.