I have alot of sick thoughts in my head. Thats why forming relationships is hard. I'm just existing

[Hawaiian Punch]

Fascinating character this guy is..

 

[Flywin Lannister]

it aint some metaphysical bullshyt is it?

No.

It's a book with the wisdom of the Dhalai Lama. It's not some religious thing, it's just a book with thoughts on achieving and living a happy life. It helps with reflecting on what makes you happy, what makes you unhappy and how to get more of what makes you happy and eliminating things that don't.

 

[Paper Boi]

i been telling yall he has mental issues. yall kept gassin him up and calling him a genius.

when he eventually snaps yall are gonna be responsible.

 

[GPBear]

i been telling yall he has mental issues. yall kept gassin him up and calling him a genius.

when he eventually snaps yall are gonna be responsible.

He's been bushed before, and the when he came back he started making all these weird threads calling women out.

http://www.thecoli.com/threads/drx-you-keep-making-creepy-threads-lets-talk-about-it.625389/

I called breh out for his weird behavior, and people sided with him

It's almost like thecoli (TLR in particular) consists of a large amount of strange motherfukkers who all sit around co-signing each other's anti-social behavior and delusional worldviews

 

[Flywin Lannister]

He's been bushed before, and the when he came back he started making all these weird threads calling women out.

@DrX You Keep Making Creepy Threads, Let's Talk About It

I called breh out for his weird behavior, and people sided with him

It's almost like thecoli (TLR in particular) consists of a large amount of strange motherfukkers who all sit around co-signing each other's anti-social behavior and delusional worldviews

Delusional worldviews are key to The Coli. In The Coliseum dudes pump athletes who totally suck up non-stop. Kevin Durant is the BEST and they flip out if you say otherwise, that he's missed all 9 3-shot attempts in the 4th quarter of the last 2 games.. yes we don't talk about that HE THE BEST!!!!!

 

[Quiet Magician]

He's been bushed before, and the when he came back he started making all these weird threads calling women out.

@DrX You Keep Making Creepy Threads, Let's Talk About It

I called breh out for his weird behavior, and people sided with him

It's almost like thecoli (TLR in particular) consists of a large amount of strange motherfukkers who all sit around co-signing each other's anti-social behavior and delusional worldviews

Most of these dudes get no buns, have little to no friends and are doing jobs that are shyt...so yeah they identify with him and prop him up as a guru of cosmic knowledge of the world.

 

[GPBear]

Delusional worldviews are key to The Coli. In The Coliseum dudes pump athletes who totally suck up non-stop. Kevin Durant is the BEST and they flip out if you say otherwise, that he's missed all 9 3-shot attempts in the 4th quarter of the last 2 games.. yes we don't talk about that HE THE BEST!!!!!

Breh, if you think the coliseum is dikkriding the warriors, you're the delusional one

But yeah, I get what you mean

 

[Another Man]

I try so hard to be "normal" I mean I dress the part, speak the part, do "normal" shyt but Its a internal fight. Im not normal but to function I have to pretend and blend in with everybody.

Im conflicted. Like the I'll be in Walmart shopping and some old white lady with smile and in my mind reads it like "If it wasn't for police protection and the legal system Id knocked this bytch over the fukking head and take her purse and be the savage she really think I'am"

Or ill be at Dennys picking up my online order. Being normal, being cool. Being charming and non threatening to the young server but thinking " Damn I want to tie this bytch up and stuff a sock in her mouth pee on her and get peed on and have kinky sex"

Im a complex man. But society is structured so you have to play the game and really be fake. U know being real can make u homeless. Everything is about power and making ppl feel they're in control over u. U have to submit to survive. Its sad if you're not naturally that type.

I try to fight my thoughts and be cool like fonzi, normal as shyt but in reality im not normal. I think i would do good in the 70s when u could be a dark cigarette smoking xxx theater masturbator but still work your job and have a family at home. But this era killed the nutjob harmless dirtbag personality. everything is heavily scrutinized and watched. Social media got us on eggshells to.

I have no place in this society as a creative type. I gotta network, make friends, be PC, to survive out here man. Do you know how hard it is to lie to y'all nikkas and pretend to like y'all for guy like me mentally? im a INTJ which is super rare. This is a curse . I'm fukking stuck, always been since birth. But the catch is im human and want friends. I don't wanna go to see WWE alone. So I'm going to have to pay for nikkas to go with me and im going to have to treat them nice and not say mean shyt. I need companionship. If I had the money Id pay for some of y'all to be my friends. Pathetic I know but im not a likable person unless I keep my mouth shut.

my old cac teacher is into the typical phony white thing "hey guy" "hey buddy" and I gotta do it back. At one time I would refuse to play that game but I gotta eat and make a living right?

All i can do is keep my mouth shut out here, be stoic and just work. People with so called "eccentric" blunt personalities are dead. You can make bad blood and up poor. I was once so passionate, unfiltered and could talk shyt like no other. Not im just a quiet calm man that smiles and nods. its a interesting place to be

No more late night creative sessions creating fly shyt. I gotta be structured and organized. I guess its so called adulthood.

I'm just existing out here man. its weird. I'm not sad or nothing just stoic. I guess ill just make money, go to work, pay bills..hopefully somebody will love me and ill just die. Sometimes I wished a nikka would just smoke me just so I don't have to grow old and live like this for another 50 years. shyt is so hard man

its a weird place to be but I've accepted it.

To The Coli your favorite Doctor is forced to grow up. Like go to bed at 8 pm and wake up at 5am, kiss my teacher ass, kiss the staff ass. get my job, be on time, be professional and save my money I can economically stable grow up

Do yall not how hard that is for somebody that was born to create? Im basically a robot now.

But DrX is growing up. Hes an adult now. I want y'all to knowledge my sacrifice tho. I'm killing myself to fit into y'all society. remember that. I'm like a "Get Out" nikka. Smile on the outside with tears falling out my eyes. thats me noe

I'm out yall. Throw DrX thread since y'all want that old school introspective shyt.

 

[GPBear]

Most of these dudes get no buns, have little to no friends and are doing jobs that are shyt...so yeah they identify with him and prop him up as a guru of cosmic knowledge of the world.

Explains how shytheads like Trump and Alex Jones get to positions of power.

Holding high profile spots are seen as the top of the food chain. So they prop up some obese white guy to those positions, because they feel validated when the guy on top looks like them.

 

[InfinateOpulance]

it aint some metaphysical bullshyt is it?

So its bullshyt now? Metaphysics is bullshyt? Do you even know what it is to call it bull shyt? Explain the bullshyt part of quantum physics to me...please

 

[WhatsGoodTy]

You need to put those thoughts towards a hobby. Like a book, music,or art. I would also talk to someone doesn't have to be a professional just someone. Crazy thoughts kept inside don't lead to nothing.

 

[semicko82]

OP don't worry about society and make yourself happy. Don't let those negative thoughts manifest through your life.

 

[Inf1ne]

If you wanna have food in your stomach.... Then yeah.... You better put in work hahaahaa


But there are days I wake where I decide "hey.... Ima just chill with my bytch today" and I do that without asking anybody

"Hey.... i feel like chilling with my mom today.... Im gonna go do that"

"Hey... i feel like laying in bed today and smoking weed" and I just do it...... And I still get paid hahahaahah

When I worked a job... I felt like a slave.

Thank god I worked for my father & not a swagless cac

But even answering to my father annoyed me.

I have a controlling and commanding personality.....

Natural leader.

Cant answer to another man.

That's about where I'm at rn . the corporate structure. (Auto is bullshyt if u not a top mechanic )wants what they want Asap but everybody gotta wait 2 weeks for a wack ass "payday" shyt I'm in training for a mgmt position and this shyt means nothing to me but instead of complaining I'm usually networking reading or recording fitness based stuff

 

[Inf1ne]

Completely feel you, OP. We're forced to live in a society in which we're imprisoned and serve the interests of people who hate our very existence. This country of immense wealth built atop the backs of our enslaved descendants will imprison us or even kill us for daring to break free of its hold to think and act independently. To be black and conscious is to be in a perpetual state of rage, as James Baldwin eloquently put it in so many words. And as white America becomes increasingly bold in asserting itself under the leadership of Donald Trump, that rage and hate we harbor for them will increase and become almost unbearable as we restrain those feelings behind our false smiles.

shyt is about to hit the fan. It is that simple. Make sure there are zero squares in your circle. Get strapped, if possible. Read and fill your mind with the literature of great black thinkers, men and women who foresaw the hell we are now walking into. Get prepared. The race war is here.

It's not really about race after a certain point its more disrespect of manhood
In about 7 months if you've been a good worker ant you might get a shiny watch or a couple hundred dollars and that's if u in big corporate shiioit for blue collar u getting maybe an extra 100 and a dinner at chili's. The SLAP IN THE FACE is the man that signs the checks will take a nice 2 week vacation get drunk on the finest shyt on new years while all our dumb asses try to make it thru the boring part of cuff szn while tryna make up for all the extra holiday bills.

fukk that shyt
Sharpen a skill and create something
.

 

[Just like bruddas]

This nikka is back again?