eventually a feeling of mortality kicks in and you realize if you don't change your whole life will pass you by. Then you die and that's it, no second chances.
it was easier to romanticize being solo dolo when I was young, plus it was more fun getting baked and fukking around on the internet back in the day. it wasn't as negative and political, not as much clout chasing and idiocy. now a mf gotta go outside to escape the internet