Just a brief update on how it's going, still sucks. We haven't been able to have cordial conversation recently and today she did the thing many Millenial chicks do, blocked me...
So my mindset as of the moment is to attempt to check on her periodically over the next few months, both thru trying her phone and mutual acquaintances. We got 3 months til the baby is due, and if for some reason we still aren't on speaking terms at that time, I feel like I'll just wash my hands with it. At the moment I feel like it's too stressful, impacting my personal peace, to keep chasing around for a woman who knows I want to be in my child's life...
If we aren't on speaking terms, I'm saying I'm not gonna force myself to the hospital or force myself on a woman who has no interest in my involvement, because then my forcing my way to the hospital can be manipulated as me stalking her and I'm not about that life and have no desire to be perceived as such...
Ultimately if the child is mine and she knows and chooses not to allow me in----because remember, her words are that she was only fukking me at the point of conception; so if her words are true, meaning she KNOWS that's my child and continues thus blockade, that's blood on her hands that she's gonna have to answer to someone at some time about...
Side note, I have a lightweight precedence going thru something similar. Before I got locked up in June '14, maybe a month or two prior I found out this girl was pregnant, who I'd last slept with around November '13 (maybe it was December). So we hadn't seen each other, and I wasn't able to get in touch with her before I went to jail...
I get out in March '15 and was able to tap in with her on Facebook that spring and she assured me the baby wasn't mine, it was someone else's even though the timeline was close. Baby was born in August '14, and for like a year I thought it was possible she was mine, but when I asked her was she sure and she said she was, I left it alone. Last heard from her maybe 2-3 years ago on some booty call shyt but nothing regarding her daughter, so it is what it is. And not that I think this particular woman is lying, but on the off chance she is and it comes out years later that, that little girl is mine, that's a failure on her mother's fault. Not really my place to force myself on her to get a DNA test when she said she aint mine...
So back to the present, obviously the difference is this chick says the baby is mine, I'm the one with doubts but she doing all this extra stuff, I'm asking for brothers with experience in this, would you play it the way I've described? That if she still carrying on in 3 months and I can't get to the hospital (I'm telling you this is a very real possibility with this woman) to get the DNA test myself, to let it go and live my life?
Or push hard as shyt regardless? That was my initial thought but honestly fam it's exhausting, she know I wanna be there for the child if she mine, she know I want a DNA. How many ways do I have to say it to the point it becomes futile? The Creator and everyone who knows me knows my heart is in the right place regardless, so jumping thru hoops of fire seems unnecessary....
Also I recently found out down here that, if this the way she gonna carry it, she can't put me on child support for a child that isn't mine, if there is no test, we aren't married, and no acknowledgement from either party that she's mine...
