I've been going through some hard times these past couple months and I didn't no why I've had such bad luck.
Eventually I said I'll start praying but I fell off real fast because I honestly cant convince myself it's doing any good.
Any one else just cant lie to themselves anymore? I wanna pray and believe in a higher power but I think I'm just to smart to believe in bullshyt without evidence. I think I'm stuck as an agnostic even tho I've tried to pray. My mind just wont take talking to something I cant see/hear/etc.in order to help me.
Eventually I said I'll start praying but I fell off real fast because I honestly cant convince myself it's doing any good.

Any one else just cant lie to themselves anymore? I wanna pray and believe in a higher power but I think I'm just to smart to believe in bullshyt without evidence. I think I'm stuck as an agnostic even tho I've tried to pray. My mind just wont take talking to something I cant see/hear/etc.in order to help me.


. The proof for me is just living life. Seeing the beauty that is life all around me i can't help but feel connected to something greater than myself.