I spend so much money on alcohol. Before all this Covid shyt, I was going to speak with a counselor/therapist every week. Found out I drink to cope, and was recommended to go to AA. I don’t think I need it, but I’m going to give it a try. My father is a high functioning alcoholic. Gets drunk every night, and still manages to get up early in the morning for work. I don’t know how he does it. He’s been that way since I was about 8 or 9, and I’m 31 now.
I always promised myself and my little girl I’d never let her see me like I used to see my father. Man, after 8:00pm you couldn’t even talk to him. I had both parents in my life, in my household, but I never had my pop to help me with stuff such as homework. I would teach myself. I didn’t have sleepovers with friends, etc. He’d be drunk, and I’d be ashamed to have me friends see him like that. My mama escaped it through the church. She’d always be at the church, and me and my siblings had to deal with my dad. He wasn’t no mean drunk. Lol, he was goofy. He just wasn’t much help after about 8. I refuse to let myself get like that.