Anybody else an alcoholic?

[Ghost Utmost]

If I can offer anything as an ancient creature (by Coli standards)

I am a lifelong functioning alcoholic

I've lost a marriage and a potential second marriage over it but never a job or .. other bad types of losses

I'm defiant in my addiction now. I try to do the right thing when I have somewhere to be (like work or w/e) but on my days off I go in. People who don't like it I just kiss them on the forehead on the way out.

I know you don't like it but I havent changed yet. And I am done fronting like I'm gonna.

Here's the numbers. On a regular school night I grab a 40 on the way in and be happy with that.

On a day when I am left to my own devices.. I could drink beers from noon til midnight.

Here's what I wanted to tell y'all

I have fukced around and become addicted. I never thought I was like the dudes that down 1/5s of liq each day, but if I try to quit now I have withdrawal symptoms. And it's no joke.

The more times you quit, the harder the effects hit

If I ever wanna quit again, I can never start back up. Cause the next round of detox will rock me to the core (the last round was crazy). And you seriously only have but so many times to stop and start. It's deadly.

Stop now if you're on the path and prone to it. Cause you get trapped by our own physiology.

You start to live on booze. To sleep. Different shyt. And your body fights you harder and harder every time you make the switch from booze hound to tee total

It's a dirty game Sibs

 

[FrederickDouglas]

I had to drink my way out of the withdrawal for speed.

never doin that shyt again.

The fukked up shyt is both alcohol and stimulants dehydrate you and both raise your blood pressure.

But you can go to some dark places mentally if you don't have anything to help you with a stimulant comedown...like panic, anxiety, suicidal thoughts etc. Drinking takes the edge off that (especially if you drink yourself unconscious), but it definitely is no walk in the park.

Benzos are even better for stimulants (like speed, etc.), but benzo withdrawal is like a stimulant comedown except it lasts longer and is even worse plus it leaves you incapable physically of doing shyt...and can actually kill you.

 

[Kyle C. Barker]

I had to drink my way out of the withdrawal for speed.

never doin that shyt again.

 

[FrederickDouglas]

If I can offer anything as an ancient creature (by Coli standards)

I am a lifelong functioning alcoholic

I've lost a marriage and a potential second marriage over it but never a job or .. other bad types of losses

I'm defiant in my addiction now. I try to do the right thing when I have somewhere to be (like work or w/e) but on my days off I go in. People who don't like it I just kiss them on the forehead on the way out.

I know you don't like it but I havent changed yet. And I am done fronting like I'm gonna.

Here's the numbers. On a regular school night I grab a 40 on the way in and be happy with that.

On a day when I am left to my own devices.. I could drink beers from noon til midnight.

Here's what I wanted to tell y'all

I have fukced around and become addicted. I never thought I was like the dudes that down 1/5s of liq each day, but if I try to quit now I have withdrawal symptoms. And it's no joke.

The more times you quit, the harder the effects hit

If I ever wanna quit again, I can never start back up. Cause the next round of detox will rock me to the core (the last round was crazy). And you seriously only have but so many times to stop and start. It's deadly.

Stop now if you're on the path and prone to it. Cause you get trapped by our own physiology.

You start to live on booze. To sleep. Different shyt. And your body fights you harder and harder every time you make the switch from booze hound to tee total

It's a dirty game Sibs

I've had a fukking pint of vodka in one sitting and was UNABLE to sleep. It was ridiculous. Sometimes I'll just be up all night and the following day (which doesn't bother me because I get euphoria from sleep deprivation after a certain point) before I can go to sleep without any substances.

 

[Henri Christophe]

Not gonna judge, cause I smoke tree all day & night

Just smoked a joint to the face out in my car just now.

I wake up.... Roll one.. Get breakfast

Get some work done.. Maybe 3-4 hours

Roll 2.... Get some lunch... Get high as fukk

Back to work 4-5 hours

Might hit one of my bros up or hit my girl up... Roll 2-3... Get high as fukk... Get some dinner.

Come home... Chill... Hop on the laptop & catch up on YouTube for a couple hours... & then before bed... I rolle one again.

I know I shouldnt be putting smoke in my lungs every day.

I've been smoking since 13-14.. Going on 10 years

This may have consequences one day... And I'm okay with that.

When I was in the hospital last year for pulmonary embolism.... The patient who shared the room with me was some middle aged breh who damn near drank himself to death

Dude was in the bed sounding mad weak and defeated.... Pretty sure he's probably dead right now

That alcohol shyt gonna kill you... Thats a fact

I aint perfect tho, so I aint gon judge

Try to cut back breh.... Dont wait till the doctors are giving you bad news.

Salute

 

[O.T.I.S.]

Describe alcoholic....

 

[Address_Unknown]

There was a thread heavy on this about a Breh that was trying to quit. Had alot of moral support in that shyt too.

Heck, even had me wanting to stop sipping for a minute as well. I wish you and anyone in here the best of luck in trying to quit 'cause I've drank Whale Weight numbers in Alcohol and never got addicted to the point where I couldn't stop if I needed to or wanted to.

.......I got mates who never had that privilege, both above and below ground; shyt's serious.

 

[martin payne]

sober since new year’s eve

didn’t have my first drink until i was 26

 

[whatthatthangsmelllike]

how does vaping stop you from drinking tho?

Helps the urge I guess it’s thc never really smoked weed though but I just started so I’ll see how that will go

 

[thenatural]

I would say I'm trending that way unless I calm down my intake. I go way too hard on the weekends and I don't abstain during the week. I'll probably grab a few 16 ounces after work every other day. I can down a six pack in about 30 minutes and not be blasted. shyt has clearly created memory loss. Had a former friend (not dead, just not close anymore) go to rehab and apparently that shyt was hell. Shakes, feeling cold, etc....

Also, after hearing about Nelsan Ellis (cat from True Blood) dying from heart failure due to alcoholism, that always sits in the back of my mind. Dude tried to detox way too many times and his body gave out on him. Liver giving out on you is no joke.

 

[An ashy lil fap hand]

The fukked up shyt is both alcohol and stimulants dehydrate you and both raise your blood pressure.

But you can go to some dark places mentally if you don't have anything to help you with a stimulant comedown...like panic, anxiety, suicidal thoughts etc. Drinking takes the edge off that (especially if you drink yourself unconscious), but it definitely is no walk in the park.

Benzos are even better for stimulants (like speed, etc.), but benzo withdrawal is like a stimulant comedown except it lasts longer and is even worse plus it leaves you incapable physically of doing shyt...and can actually kill you.

Deadass, I know that I'm gonna quit and stay alive, I'm gonna have to be very careful. I might legit have to go to the hospital because even on a light day, I still have like 5 or 6 beers to be at baseline.

 

[Marco Zen]

Sober life is just better


All you nikkaz in here bragging about how much you can drink


Minimizing what's it doing to you


The denial The justifying



Been there





Its a hell of a thing when you're not comfortable in your own skin unless you fukked up

 

[raidersreceiver]

Instead of a 6 pack tonight I bought 2 tall boys thanks to this thread

 

[DropTopDoc]

I think about my consumption, and i def drink, but i can go days without it


Never no judgement


Lot of addiction in here, you nikkas gotta relax, so you don’t end up worm food sooner than you should

 

[$lim]

i’m more of a pot head but i’ll have a couple beers when i’m hanging with friends. maybe a couple shots.

i’ll drink a couple beers by myself too. when i’m with a female might get a bottle.