Life isn't meant to be lived in isolation.

I typed up a couple of long paragraphs but then deleted. I'll just say this, the fewer people you have in your life the less drama there is. At least in my own experience.
“Other than literally everyone I know, I really don’t like to be around peopleOther than hanging out with my family, friends and the people I associate with, do business/art/music with I really don't want anybody else in my life at this point.
“Basically that's all this is. The sad thing is nobody on this board cares. The fact that he felt the need to make the thread is a direct call for help..........justify being lonely as fukk because you can't get anybody brehs![]()

Some of yall are some miserable ass muthafukkas... I can understand wanting a break from the world and yes a lot of people out here are shytty but damn nikkas want NO family, NO women, NO friends, or even go out to dinners and concerts alone?![]()


YUP!
You wanna know why!?
It's easier.
Peep this example that just happened to me YESTERDAY my nikka...
So...we have visiting...workers....this week working on a project.
My Team-Lead decides "Hey, lets take out the visitors for lunch on their last day". Me tryna be the team player, decides to go along even though i'm usually like "fukk these fools..." on my loner shyt at lunch.
So, we get there...and there's 9 of us. They set up the table where it's like a long rectangle with 10 seats.
Everyone sits across from someone else and since I'm the nikka on the end...no one sits across from me.
These motherfukkers proceed to group up and talk down the table with everyone else and completely act like I'm not there.
So after 5 minutes of that shyt...I wasn't there. I went to the bar and chopped it up with the bartender and watched some sports and ate drank and had a good time. I finish my appetizer and drink and peep over the bar area to the table to see if these cac fukkers are done yet. Nope...have another drink.
By the time these a$$holes finished up I was feeling good and went back to the table to check my social media.
I sit back in my chair reading funny shyt and laughing and one of my teammates has the nerve to try and talk to me when all the other fukkers went to the bathroom without her ass.
I ignored her, then when she kept pushing I gave her this exact look...
The fukk you tryna talk to me when you ain't said shyt the whole time you been here?? OH! I see...they left your china ass behind and now you think you gonna get some sympathy from me?
fukk outta here bytch!
Went right back to reading my phone and ignoring her.
See...the moral of the story is that people like me are alone already anyhow....so why even bother mingling with these dead-brain sheep-head fukks in the first place??
You only asking to be disappointed fukking with these "General Population" a$$holes....
You're justified.
and was physically assaulted by those folks. This was done consistently. Somehow I managed to be able to find people who took me in though I was also told by them how weird I was or like that I was different. A majority of these people would eventually be in my life for a short time and then leave me hanging where I was by myself again. Only a few of them stayed which they bounced eventually. Plus I had some of these people turn their backs on me like my childhood friends and that really hurt me a lot especially when I got bullied and didn't really have anybody that was showing me love like that except my family. My brother was the only person that would fight for me though at times, he would leave me hanging because he didn't want to join in in being an outcast. So by the time I was a preteen I pretty much didn't have anybody but immediate family mainly my mother and brother that rocked with me. That changed in high school where I found people that really embraced me for who I was and stuck with me though it wasn't a lot but the damage was done. I pretty much have accepted that I wasn't going to be accepted by people like that or popular. I have very few people that rock with me like that and am not really open in terms of letting people into my life like that unfortunately due to my fear experiencing the same shyt.
. Plus I still get viewed and treated like a weirdo because I act a certain way that is I guess weird and off putting to people so I have many people shun me and very few people that show me love like that. I try to reach out to those I actually rock with, let into my life to spend time with me, hang out, go places and they don't wanna do that. They're busy or don't wanna be bothered. I spend most of my time alone because I have no choice. Ive given up trying to be socialite eons ago and pretty much have a damned if I do and damned if I don't mentality. I expect to be hated or have someone give me a hard time before I have someone show me love and take it easy on me. I don't even trust people.Well saidPeople = problems
