this shyt got me tight...........
i LOVe mary. medical mary to be exact. Ive been faithful to her, indulging in her presence on a daily basis, spending lots of time and money on her. She is a huge aspect of my life. But while she can be great to me, i think shes starting to lose interest in me. Maybe even hate me. IDK if shes cheating on me, but what your about to hear is something that troubles me deeply
weed has always given me some weird effects, first anxiety but i worked through that, then it gave me weird twitches which i also worked through. I thought nothing short of being broke would keep us apart. But now, things are getting very physical. This problem has lasted for a while but this last week shyts gone to another level. Theres some weird lump in my throat that i think is my eppiglotis thats gone slack, idk how to explain it normally the epiglottis in your upper throat stands out straight to aid in digestion. But when its floppy as i call it, it keeps the boundary between your lungs and esophagus away, so essentially everything goes down both ways unless i swallow carefully. When i smoke, this does a variety of things that im only gradually identifying. In short, when i smoke i get inordinate amounts of weed smoke in my stomach. I have no idea how to mitigate this, ive tried techniques for inhaling the smoke but ive come to the conclusion that theres something wrong with the architecture of my throat. It seems that smoke gets trapped in my throat, maybe my esophagus actually. When it gets trapped there there is no feasible way to get it out (atleast that ive found, and if there is one i bet it takes a lot of technique). When i swallow with any smoke in my body it goes straight down to my stomach, even after ive completely exhaled all the smoke from my lungs. a lot of times i take a hit and dont breathe out any smoke, not because i ghosted it but because its in my fukking stomach. It doesnt get you high you just feel shytty. At about the third bong bowl shyt gets weird, my throat basically gives out and properly inhaling the smoke is impossible, its blatantly obvious because the smoke drifts out of my mouth rapidly like it never went down in the first place. Even my friends see it an say wtf because it looks so awkward. When i smoke alot i puke now, even when my stomach is empty, so i just hack and hack then feel like shyt and knock the fukk out. Luckly i didnt puke this week because im really taking measures to stop this. Im bringing something to drink with me when i smoke, without it its guarenteed im gonna feel like shyt for hours. And the health effects are long term too, for the last week ive felt really low on energy and kinda sick, probably because my stomach lining and intestines are absorbing massive amounts of carcinogens.
Guys, i might have to let her go, this is one of the hardest decisions ive ever made but it might have to happen. Atleast a week or 2 break to see if the problem fixes itself. This is also a symptom of anxiety so im taking my anxiety meds now hoping theyll help. Where im from im known as one of the biggest potheads around. I need weed for music it makes my ear soooooo sharp that i can make pristine mixes that i rarely can do while sober. I can percive what my life will be like without weed, but it doesnt sound good. My friends pretty much only smoke when we hang so idk how theyll react if i quit. Last time i quit they dogged me an the next day i was smoking again, even though i had quit for a month prior. Then they see me puking and twitching and instead of wondering if i shouldnt smoke so much, they figure its because i havent smoked ENOUGH
I need helllpppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp
i LOVe mary. medical mary to be exact. Ive been faithful to her, indulging in her presence on a daily basis, spending lots of time and money on her. She is a huge aspect of my life. But while she can be great to me, i think shes starting to lose interest in me. Maybe even hate me. IDK if shes cheating on me, but what your about to hear is something that troubles me deeply
weed has always given me some weird effects, first anxiety but i worked through that, then it gave me weird twitches which i also worked through. I thought nothing short of being broke would keep us apart. But now, things are getting very physical. This problem has lasted for a while but this last week shyts gone to another level. Theres some weird lump in my throat that i think is my eppiglotis thats gone slack, idk how to explain it normally the epiglottis in your upper throat stands out straight to aid in digestion. But when its floppy as i call it, it keeps the boundary between your lungs and esophagus away, so essentially everything goes down both ways unless i swallow carefully. When i smoke, this does a variety of things that im only gradually identifying. In short, when i smoke i get inordinate amounts of weed smoke in my stomach. I have no idea how to mitigate this, ive tried techniques for inhaling the smoke but ive come to the conclusion that theres something wrong with the architecture of my throat. It seems that smoke gets trapped in my throat, maybe my esophagus actually. When it gets trapped there there is no feasible way to get it out (atleast that ive found, and if there is one i bet it takes a lot of technique). When i swallow with any smoke in my body it goes straight down to my stomach, even after ive completely exhaled all the smoke from my lungs. a lot of times i take a hit and dont breathe out any smoke, not because i ghosted it but because its in my fukking stomach. It doesnt get you high you just feel shytty. At about the third bong bowl shyt gets weird, my throat basically gives out and properly inhaling the smoke is impossible, its blatantly obvious because the smoke drifts out of my mouth rapidly like it never went down in the first place. Even my friends see it an say wtf because it looks so awkward. When i smoke alot i puke now, even when my stomach is empty, so i just hack and hack then feel like shyt and knock the fukk out. Luckly i didnt puke this week because im really taking measures to stop this. Im bringing something to drink with me when i smoke, without it its guarenteed im gonna feel like shyt for hours. And the health effects are long term too, for the last week ive felt really low on energy and kinda sick, probably because my stomach lining and intestines are absorbing massive amounts of carcinogens.
Guys, i might have to let her go, this is one of the hardest decisions ive ever made but it might have to happen. Atleast a week or 2 break to see if the problem fixes itself. This is also a symptom of anxiety so im taking my anxiety meds now hoping theyll help. Where im from im known as one of the biggest potheads around. I need weed for music it makes my ear soooooo sharp that i can make pristine mixes that i rarely can do while sober. I can percive what my life will be like without weed, but it doesnt sound good. My friends pretty much only smoke when we hang so idk how theyll react if i quit. Last time i quit they dogged me an the next day i was smoking again, even though i had quit for a month prior. Then they see me puking and twitching and instead of wondering if i shouldnt smoke so much, they figure its because i havent smoked ENOUGH
I need helllpppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp
I thought she was down with u last week
