Anybody on here Schizophrenic? Wanna vent...

[NotaPAWG]

What else have you been doing to try and change this? When you went without the meds did you excercise, change your diet, try new things, pursu

Change what? There's not changing mental illness. There's coping with it. I'm seeing a therapist right now and have been for about a month

And I've tried it all. But depression can be so disabling that any of those efforts get thrown out the door when I hit a very bad low. It can be pretty much impossible to keep up with excercise when just getting out of bed is a task in itself.

 

[HoldThisL]

I've never had a job longer than a few months.. it's not because I'm lazy because when I do work I'm a great worker the thing is I get myself so overwhelmed with the dumbest shyt that I impulsively quit

When I was working at Publix I cried on three separate occasions while working the cashier because of mean customers. The last time some a$$hole was flipping out at me because he tried to buy something he couldn't with food stamps and owed money and basically was just insulating me. I was tearing up and when I was done with him I just started crying and walked out.

Dam that sucks, I'm literally never doing a customer service related job ever again. I had too many problems with those types of jobs with my number of illnesses. Can't stand being fake or putting on a smile for customers when that is not how I feel inside. I'm not working in a environment where the main message is "The customer is always right". I have a unstable mood and it would not be healthy for neither myself or the customer.

 

[thekingsmen]

Change what? There's not changing mental illness. There's coping with it. I'm seeing a therapist right now and have been for about a month

And I've tried it all. But depression can be so disabling that any of those efforts get thrown out the door when I hit a very bad low. It can be pretty much impossible to keep up with excercise when just getting out of bed is a task in itself.

There are things to diminish mental illness.The defeatist attitude is always the easy route.

 

[thekingsmen]

Dam that sucks, I'm literally never doing a customer service related job ever again. I had too many problems with those types of jobs with my number of illnesses. Can't stand being fake or putting on a smile for customers when that is not how I feel inside. I'm not working in a environment where the main message is "The customer is always right". I have a unstable mood and it would not be healthy for neither myself or the customer.

Have you tried looking into Neuro Feedback?

 

[Prince Mongo]

Hella.

All I'ma tell you is watch how you carry yourself, because you seem like a victim ass nikka. If somebody isn't bothering you, you ain't got no right to judge or talk bad about somebody. I can't lie to you, I'd beat your ass if I saw you in person, just because you're a disrespectful type of nikka. Thank God you don't know me, real shyt. But another nikka will kill you for being the type of nikka you are, I put that on my life. Let's say if you said this to a nikka locked up or something, you wanna get raped over something you could've kept to yourself?

 

[sanityovar8ted]

I appreciate you being so open about your condition. I have one question, though. From everything I have heard and read, people with schizophrenia don't realize that hearing voices or seeing shyt is abnormal. Supposedly, they're unable to differentiate between what's real and what's not and believe that everyone else is crazy. I see you typing from the perspective of someone who realizes that the voices are all in your head. Was it always like that? Did it take meds to get you to that point?

Sometimes I can't differentiate them ...it's one of the reasons I try to stay out of public places it can b very hard to differentiate n I'm not always correct...n meds didn't help with that... Me charging ppl up n confronting them is how I differentiate if they didn't say nothing n it's all just in my bed I apologize n tell them my bad but I know I heard what they thinking.

 

[sanityovar8ted]

That monthly injection helps?

Yesssssss minimal side effects n i can function unlike on the pill meds they have tried to prescribe....I'm here now at Metrocare trynna get back on my meds.

 

[semtex]

Yeah, it's like constant voices non-stop and they won't go away.

goddamn bro. I'm so sorry. Can't imagine dealing with that

 

[Mfalme_Perez]

I've mentioned this before, I suffer from Bipolar depression and PTSD. Years of sexual abuse and my mom passing away, plus foster care will really fukk your mental up. I have days where I wake up crying, shaking, and screaming because I'm reliving the pain. There are days where I'm on top of the . It only lasts for a little while before I crash and go into full "I hate everything" mode. When I was 16, I had an "up" moment and wrote an entire book in three days. One of my friends read it and said it was amazing, yet dark. I'm living proof that you can have a mental illiness and raise a child. I was always told I wouldn't be able to do anything in life. I'm working on my four year and keeping it together. Get the help that you need hun. Stick with it and never let anyone tell you that you can't.


A note for the trolls, it's bad enough that there is a stigma that comes with being Mentally ill. It's worse when you're black and people only see you as an SSI check. If you continue to treat our sick brothers and sisters as a way to pay your bills, they won't progress. You should be ashamed of yourselves.

 

[SeveroDrgnfli]

We fightin different demons man

My mental illness has nothing to do with violent urges or desires. Im not fascinated with death or violence. If Im sittin at work fantasizing, its about making it as a musician and slayin mad groupies

like if Im at work, and I need to get a knife to open a package of Sangria, in my mind Im like "what if I just stabbed someone right now"

It gets way more fukked up then that

come on breh. Lol at least I'm honest. That's why I've been able to get healthy fam. Yes I want to slaughter some people, but it's not going to happen because I know it's wild and not me. There's nothing wrong with having violent thoughts as long I know they're just thoughts and not something I should do. I would worry if I decided it was okay to hurt people. Other than that I think I'm pretty healthy.

I exercise everyday. I have healthly relationships. I have a productive life style. A therapist. And I'm honest about how I feel and what I think.

What I find sad is people with undiagnosed mental and emotional issues. Again, people love to call me crazy because I'm honest about what's going on me, but I'm always working on myself while they just assume they're healthy. All mental issues may not be as severe as mine. But I do believe a lot of people have them. Explains why people are so cruel to each other.

For example people keep voting for the same parties and expect government to change. That's insane to me. The ability to read about one's country bombing a wedding and feeling nothing is psychotic to me.

I can't even watch MMA. It makes me nervous. I don't like seeing people hurt each other, especially for money. I hate to see people suffer. I often give homeless people all the cash I have in my pocket so they know someone cares about them. You can find me having lunch with a homeless cat every now and then.

I don't judge anyone. I fukk with everybody. And I'm very supportive of people around me if I don't like them. Yeah I might want to impale someone and stick them in a rotisserie oven. But there's another side to that coin.

 

[ThaRealness]

come on breh. Lol at least I'm honest. That's why I've been able to get healthy fam. Yes I want to slaughter some people, but it's not going to happen because I know it's wild and not me. There's nothing wrong with having violent thoughts as long I know they're just thoughts and not something I should do. I would worry if I decided it was okay to hurt people. Other than that I think I'm pretty healthy.

I exercise everyday. I have healthly relationships. I have a productive life style. A therapist. And I'm honest about how I feel and what I think.

What I find sad is people with undiagnosed mental and emotional issues. Again, people love to call me crazy because I'm honest about what's going on me, but I'm always working on myself while they just assume they're healthy. All mental issues may not be as severe as mine. But I do believe a lot of people have them. Explains why people are so cruel to each other.

For example people keep voting for the same parties and expect government to change. That's insane to me. The ability to read about one's country bombing a wedding and feeling nothing is psychotic to me.

I can't even watch MMA. It makes me nervous. I don't like seeing people hurt each other, especially for money. I hate to see people suffer. I often give homeless people all the cash I have in my pocket so they know someone cares about them. You can find me having lunch with a homeless cat every now and then.

I don't judge anyone. I fukk with everybody. And I'm very supportive of people around me if I don't like them. Yeah I might want to impale someone and stick them in a rotisserie oven. But there's another side to that coin.

I always keep it 100. Pure OCD, Id imagine, affects different people in different ways. All I know is, to me, it always felt like the thoughts were external. I don't know, when I was a kid, Id get incredibly obsessed with trivial shyt - I read through an entire book on baseball statistics... Id always try to add incredible siginifance to mundane things. Like 'if I beat this level in a video game, Ima get a girlfriend this weekend "
11:11 type shyt.
I guess gradually my mind developed a tendency to form extreme scenarios out of mundane events. And then when my anxiety got severe, in high school, I started getting the pure O thoughts.

Anyways, my OCD used to be the antithetical type - my subconscious mind would come up with twisted scenarios attacking my values and beliefs.


Nowadays the shyt is just random. Ive never directed my thoughts towards someone I don't fukk with, but the condition affects people differently

 

[Sccit]

Stfu nikka

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[Sccit]

Simple silence? It's not simple at all.

AS SIMPLE AS U MAKE IT OUT TO BE

 

[Prince Mongo]

AS SIMPLE AS U MAKE IT OUT TO BE

Get the fukk out of this thread dumb ass

 

[Sccit]

Get the fukk out of this thread dumb ass

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