Anybody on here Schizophrenic? Wanna vent...

[NotaPAWG]

come on breh. Lol at least I'm honest. That's why I've been able to get healthy fam. Yes I want to slaughter some people, but it's not going to happen because I know it's wild and not me. There's nothing wrong with having violent thoughts as long I know they're just thoughts and not something I should do. I would worry if I decided it was okay to hurt people. Other than that I think I'm pretty healthy.

I exercise everyday. I have healthly relationships. I have a productive life style. A therapist. And I'm honest about how I feel and what I think.

What I find sad is people with undiagnosed mental and emotional issues. Again, people love to call me crazy because I'm honest about what's going on me, but I'm always working on myself while they just assume they're healthy. All mental issues may not be as severe as mine. But I do believe a lot of people have them. Explains why people are so cruel to each other.

For example people keep voting for the same parties and expect government to change. That's insane to me. The ability to read about one's country bombing a wedding and feeling nothing is psychotic to me.

I can't even watch MMA. It makes me nervous. I don't like seeing people hurt each other, especially for money. I hate to see people suffer. I often give homeless people all the cash I have in my pocket so they know someone cares about them. You can find me having lunch with a homeless cat every now and then.

I don't judge anyone. I fukk with everybody. And I'm very supportive of people around me if I don't like them. Yeah I might want to impale someone and stick them in a rotisserie oven. But there's another side to that coin.

It's annoying to see other people shame others for their honesty and self awareness especially on here where you can tell a lot of the same posters who are quick to shame you for it say some off the wall ass shyt day in and day out in general or especially to other posters which showcase they got some issues.

At least people like ourselves aren't in denial about who we are, our thoughts and feelings and struggling and trying to get help.

I might not have a lot going for me, really nothing at all going for me. But I'm really good at communicating my feelings and the place I'm in mentally especially with my boyfriend who also struggles compared to day years ago when I just kept denying my illness or trying to deal with it on my own and being in a very unhealthy relationship. Where as now, right off the bat when my boyfriend and I started talking we pretty much told each other both our issues, stuff with deal with, insecurities etc and because of that we can tell when one another is not in a good place and might need either that extra support or place.

 

[SeveroDrgnfli]

It's annoying to see other people shame others for their honesty and self awareness especially on here where you can tell a lot of the same posters who are quick to shame you for it say some off the wall ass shyt day in and day out in general or especially to other posters which showcase they got some issues.

At least people like ourselves aren't in denial about who we are, our thoughts and feelings and struggling and trying to get help.

I might not have a lot going for me, really nothing at all going for me. But I'm really good at communicating my feelings and the place I'm in mentally especially with my boyfriend who also struggles compared to day years ago when I just kept denying my illness or trying to deal with it on my own and being in a very unhealthy relationship. Where as now, right off the bat when my boyfriend and I started talking we pretty much told each other both our issues, stuff with deal with, insecurities etc and because of that we can tell when one another is not in a good place and might need either that extra support or place.

Honestly IRL I am very hush hush about my mental health. My public persona is that of a leader. People follow me. I raise kids for a living. And I feed thousands of people. I have a team that relies on me to be on point.

But I know black people need someone who's brave enough to talk about this shyt so other black people know they're not alone and they can succeed in society with whatever they have going on.

I could have played into the coli hive mind and been one of the guys. But that's stupid. I'd rather do what I'm here to do. And that's ride for the weirdos by leading by example.

My threads will be helpful to someone in the future. My threads are unique. They're raw. They're emotional. Contradictory. Theyre honest threads.

 

[Quiet Magician]

I always keep it 100. Pure OCD, Id imagine, affects different people in different ways. All I know is, to me, it always felt like the thoughts were external. I don't know, when I was a kid, Id get incredibly obsessed with trivial shyt - I read through an entire book on baseball statistics... Id always try to add incredible siginifance to mundane things. Like 'if I beat this level in a video game, Ima get a girlfriend this weekend "
11:11 type shyt.
I guess gradually my mind developed a tendency to form extreme scenarios out of mundane events. And then when my anxiety got severe, in high school, I started getting the pure O thoughts.

Anyways, my OCD used to be the antithetical type - my subconscious mind would come up with twisted scenarios attacking my values and beliefs.


Nowadays the shyt is just random. Ive never directed my thoughts towards someone I don't fukk with, but the condition affects people differently

Hey bro, how accurate is this video?

 

[Paradise50]

YES I HAVE AND KNOW PEOPLE PERSONALLY WHO DIED FROM PSYCH MEDS, AFTER SPENDING THEIR LATTER YEARS WALKIN AROUND LIKE DRUGGED UP ZOMBIES .. THERES DIFFERENT LEVELS TO IT. SOUNDS LIKE U ONLY KNOW IT AS THE CONDITION IN ME MYSELF AND IRENE

I mean some psychotic meds do have bad side effects especially over time.

Also I can only speak on the hospital but they treat black mental health patients like shyt compared to white ones. They'll coddle a frequent cac like hell but discharge the black ones in no time


Even overall treatment the average black patient is treated like shyt compared to a cac

 

[4fossa]

Op I'm pretty sure I have schizo in some small degree


Usually smiking weed everyday helps me

 

[root_eruditorium_org]

your best bet is to leave America if you're interested in living a higher quality of life with your condition.

& go to where? Europe? Japan?

You know that vast swathes of the planet do not even acknowledge mental illnesses much less diagnose or provide medication for.

 

[root_eruditorium_org]

@sooWoo

just hang in there my man. if you can afford it try to find a great psychiatrist who has dealt with this before and knows what he is doing. it's my opinion that modern healthcare systems are ill equipped with dealing with most mental illnesses. also you will find a lot of clowns in this thread, saying shyt like 'get over it' and what have you, just ignore them and don't take it to heart.

people in general are pretty callous and think the world revolves around them and theiir own issues so it's hard for them to empathize. i feel like the only way you can empathize wth somebody who is suffering from a mental illness is to experience it yourself.

also don't let anybody make you feel bad for taking medication. in your case there is really no way of avoiding it.

i hope that 100 years from now humanity will be better equipped with dealing with the various mental afflictions out there. i used to think modern medicinne was all hunky dory (state of the art) until i started experiencing my own issues and was at the mercy of incompetent, unsympathetic doctors.

look out for yourself out there fam and try to stay positive.

 

[Sccit]

I mean some psychotic meds do have bad side effects especially over time.

Also I can only speak on the hospital but they treat black mental health patients like shyt compared to white ones. They'll coddle a frequent cac like hell but discharge the black ones in no time


Even overall treatment the average black patient is treated like shyt compared to a cac

ITS NOT ONLY BLACKS, THEY TREAT PEOPLE IN GENERAL AS DOLLAR SIGNS

 

[Chubbs]

All I'ma tell you is watch how you carry yourself, because you seem like a victim ass nikka. If somebody isn't bothering you, you ain't got no right to judge or talk bad about somebody. I can't lie to you, I'd beat your ass if I saw you in person, just because you're a disrespectful type of nikka. Thank God you don't know me, real shyt. But another nikka will kill you for being the type of nikka you are, I put that on my life. Let's say if you said this to a nikka locked up or something, you wanna get raped over something you could've kept to yourself?

It's not that deep.

 

[Matt504]

& go to where? Europe? Japan?

You know that vast swathes of the planet do not even acknowledge mental illnesses much less diagnose or provide medication for.

Maybe India, China or Africa. Western countries aren't eligible.

 

[ThaRealness]

Hey bro, how accurate is this video?

More accurate then I thought it would be

 

[Gold]

interesting thread

 

[Capitol]

Change what? There's not changing mental illness. There's coping with it. I'm seeing a therapist right now and have been for about a month

And I've tried it all. But depression can be so disabling that any of those efforts get thrown out the door when I hit a very bad low. It can be pretty much impossible to keep up with excercise when just getting out of bed is a task in itself.

I'm not an expert on this obviously, but you can always change something about your day to day life. I didn't mean just wake up and stop being depressed because I know it doesn't work that way lol.

I'm saying that a way to help the body mentally could be to help yourself physically and spiritually. Strengthening yourself in that regard can open your mind to what you are truly capable of.

On another note, this isn't a shot at you but it kinda trips me out how people will say meds mellow me out but have side effects or that the meds they first used fukked them up but they keep trying new pills and new doctors. But no one tries different natural remedies. Both sides have thousands of years behind them so I would try to keep an open mind to both and weigh the pros and cons carefully. Peace

 

[Prince Mongo]

It's not that deep.

You think it ain't that deep, and that's what's going to get you fukked off

 

[Chubbs]

You think it ain't that deep, and that's what's going to get you fukked off

Oh no, I'm terrified.