I've honestly lost hope and that saddens me. My last situation and my own personal baggage broke all my optimism or some would say delusions about marriage/settling down.
I realize how much settling goes into marrying a woman of today.
I feel like its want but can't have paradigm at least for me. As a single 30 year old man, The women who really seem to want marriage are my age or older, have kids and just want a man to feel validated. Feels like they're "done" so to speak. Like they're ready to be boring. Oh and a lot of them dont seem to be doing well professionally...I dont really want a partner who is washed up and wants the boring settled down life....
While the young hot, exciting chicks with good careers dont wanna settle down but are fun. More my speed right but they're playing the game, worse than nikkas. They cannot be relied upon or trusted to be in it for the long run.
shyt's messy.
. Really puts shyt in perspective.