short answer, we are growing in different directions.![]()


In light of the recent changes in my life, it has caused me to reflect on the past. i made so many mistakes...i always seem to make it to the fork in the road and go in the wrong direction. at 35 years old, i'm not happy with where i am. i got
, i let my marriage fall apart (when i probably could have done something to fix it a long time ago), my finances have suffered for a long time (although my money is looking a lot better nowadays), etc.
With all that said, i hired a personal trainer and got back in the gym (already 4lbs. down), i have finally acceped the fact that this marriage is not going to work for either of us and hurled all thoughts of a possible reconciliation into the bushes, and i have started making smarter and more calculated decisions when it comes to my finance. i'm a lot less wasteful and am very concious of what i'm spending my money on. it's only a few steps so far, but they are finally in the right direction. the next 2 years will be spent rebuilding myself. i liked being married, but when it ends it tears everything in your life apart before it's finally done. it's like a tornado. i'll probably never do it again.
i'm rambling....i just needed to vent....
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That can happen to anyone...so you're actually going through with the divorce?
i'll get over it eventually.
In light of the recent changes in my life, it has caused me to reflect on the past. i made so many mistakes...i always seem to make it to the fork in the road and go in the wrong direction. at 35 years old, i'm not happy with where i am. i got
, i let my marriage fall apart (when i probably could have done something to fix it a long time ago), my finances have suffered for a long time (although my money is looking a lot better nowadays), etc.
With all that said, i hired a personal trainer and got back in the gym (already 4lbs. down), i have finally acceped the fact that this marriage is not going to work for either of us and hurled all thoughts of a possible reconciliation into the bushes, and i have started making smarter and more calculated decisions when it comes to my finance. i'm a lot less wasteful and am very concious of what i'm spending my money on. it's only a few steps so far, but they are finally in the right direction. the next 2 years will be spent rebuilding myself. i liked being married, but when it ends it tears everything in your life apart before it's finally done. it's like a tornado. i'll probably never do it again.
i'm rambling....i just needed to vent....
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i don't want to. i'd like to work things out, but she seems to want to be free. so what can i do? i'm not trying to keep someone who doesn't want to be kept. it hurts, buti'll get over it eventually.