I don't think he posts here anymore but far and away it was
@Camile.Bidan aka gundamzeta....not even close.
It's mostly HL/KTL posters who know about him though.
I don't hate myself.
I used to have a lot of resentment towards African Americans because I was never accepted by them. However, after seeing my genetic code and really taking a hard look myself and who I am, I realized that I am someone with black ancestry, but I am not a black person, and I am not a member of the black community.
Nobody sees me as Black, including black people. When I finally accepted that, I no longer had resentment towards black people. When I was called gook and chink the black kids on school, and, by contrast, embrassed by my non-black parent's race. things just started to really build-up inside of me. Then as I got older and the race wars ensued in high school, I was never on the black side, and I never had any black friends.
I have never had sex with a black women. I have never dated a black woman.
At the same time, all of my mentors in life have been white people. White people have helped become successful. White people have given me a helping hand when I needed it. It was a white lady who got me off the streets and made seriously consider community college. It was a white lady and a Chinese lady who tried to reach out to me and stopped me from dropping out of high school.
In my professional career, there are black partners at my firm. I have never heard from them. Black professionals have never helped me. Recently, A white Jewish partner reached out to me and said I have what it takes to be on the partner track. A Chinese manager (a woman) coached me into becoming one of the highest performers in the firm.
I look at my two kids, and they have no black features because I had none. Their mother, my wife, is not particularly fond of black people or black culture. My sons, because they are non-black, have a very low probability of dating and procreating with black women. My wife has declared that they only can only marry Asian women or at worst white, and I am fine with that.
So basically, I don't owe black people anything, black people have never helped me with anything in my life, I don't have black friends. in the real world, I am not considered a black person and I don't see myself
As one. Finally, My kids aren't black and they probably won't have black friends or black wives. As such, if I
say something critical of the black community, it really has no reflection on me, my family or the people that helped me I my life. Thus, my comments are not a reflection of self-hate. animosity perhaps. But that is it.